Friday, March 15, 2013
To be honest, I've always had a problem with food. I obsess about it. I'm always thinking about when and when I'm going to eat next. It's honestly just pathetic, and I've always been this way.
Addiction of all kinds runs in my family, but there is a special emphasis on food addiction. Most of the people in my family are overweight or obese. And we all absolutely love food.
Now don't get me wrong: I think an appreciation for eating is a great thing. However, the obsession that I have struggled with in relation to food is just ridiculous. The main event in a person's life shouldn't be their next meal.
In middle school, I also had a problem with obsessive dieting. I was always the biggest out of all of my friends, and that really bothered me. Looking back on it now, I never really was "fat" until this year; so I'm not really sure why I was so convinced I was. But because of this, I was always attempting to diet, and, inevitably, failing.
But, throughout middle school and high school, I was extremely active due to cheerleading: a sport that practices two to three hours a day, five days a week, ten months a year. I had an athletic, well-muscled body.
Now I'm in my first year of college. I had gained about ten pounds over first semester. Two months ago, I decided I had enough of this. Enough of letting food rule my life. And I wanted my body back. So I started cutting calories. I've really only been working out a little bit. Now, I'm down almost twenty pounds.
My real goal now to to focus on more than just cutting calories: I want to eat clean and develop an athletic body. I'm transferring to a university in the fall, and I would like to attain this goal by then.