Friday, March 15, 2013
I wanted to post this just to give my friends an idea whats been going on before I fall off the radar on night shift coming up here pretty quick. To say the least, this has been quite the experience, I have really been knocked off my feet and hit the ground pretty hard. Anxiety has been pretty high but I am coping on a day to day basis the best I can.
After the mental blow and struggling to get my bearings after that, I had the mother of all back spasms while shoveling snow which totally messed things up and I missed 3 days of work on top of my long weekend just trying to get to a place where I could go down the hall without hanging on to something. Then when I was getting close to recovering from that, I got a good case of asthmatic bronchitis. Just climbing stairs would leave me sweating and breathless. My world shifted focus from training for my big race to just being able to function. Even walking a mile at 3 mph would leave me feeling like I just ran a 10k.
Overall, I have lost almost 25 days of training time and at a time when I was getting ready to ramp it up. The race is in a little over 4 months and I cant suffer any set backs. I did go for a workout today and I am trying to figure out where my limits are at. My back is really feeling much better now but I am paranoid about getting hurt again. I can feel my strength coming back but my cardio is history. I do have a feeling that once I get a week into my medications I will be OK. So far the last few days have yielded some good results.
The big thing for me is that at least my chest is not in constant pain and feeling like i am being crushed. My inhaler is my friend because when you cant breathe, nothing else matters.
right now my plan is to slowly do what cardio I can at a really easy pace just to get some sort of exercise to strengthen my lungs as they recover. I just need to get my confidence back, i really took a hit and need to get my bearings.
I know I will be ok but it has been really hard for me. I so appreciate all of the comments and encouragement that you folks left me on my last blog. I totally appreciate every one of you. It is hard to fathom i guess but you all really mean alot to me, i feel like you guys (n gals) are really here sometimes cheering me on and wanting me to succeed.
Its been a real rat race lately and i have only gotten back to a handful that commented but I want you to know that I really appreciate all of the notes and SP mails.
I have been promising myself that I am actually going to get some sleep tonight so I am going to pull the plug...TTYL.
PS... The one big lesson from all of this, if you think you have not made any progress, just let what you do have be taken away for a while = attitude adjustment.