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Starting over

Friday, March 15, 2013

emoticon Starting over. Picking myself up off the floor and starting over. Last week was very difficult however it was not in vain because I learned some important things about myself. I prepared for a good week, but I didn't follow my plan. I made conscious decisions that didn't help me reach my goals for the week. I realized that a part of me was afraid of the success I had the previous week. If I would continue I really could reach my goal. What then? I know that sounds crazy and I know that part of it is. But realizing it was fear and knowing the source of the fear gives me the ability to start over and face the fear in a completely different way. Therefore, I can do this. It is ok to be successful in this area of my life. I can do this and I WILL do this! I deserve to be healthy. emoticon
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  • ROSEPETAL205
    Thank you so much for your encouragement, you have touched my heart deeply. I appreciate you taking time out of your busy lives to encourage me. How thoughtful and caring you are. I know I am going to make it this time because of all the help and support I am getting from people who don't even know me, but understand my struggle and pain.
    Thank you.
    1361 days ago
  • SUSANBEAMON
    no one is promised an even journey and we will stumble at times. that is when we pick ourselves up, study what tripped us and move forward. that's just what you are doing and it is a good thing. keep it up.
    1363 days ago
  • SPARKLE1908
    Part of this journey is finding out what obstacles prevent us from achieving our goals...you sound as though you have figured that out and can now move ahead!!!! That is wonderful!!! emoticon
    1363 days ago
  • RENE176
    You're not starting over! You are ahead of where you were! You learned some fantastic lessons! You are in even better shape now then you were at the beginning of the week. Every success was an improvement! You learned so much! You are so determined! GOOD WORK!!!
    1363 days ago

    Comment edited on: 3/15/2013 8:50:17 PM
  • JEROMESGURL
    DEAREST ROSEPETAL,

    I too well can relate to everything you posted- and you did not fail at anything- at my highest I was 290 at 5'1"- and I found myself having all the best intentions, buying all the food, only to have something "throw me off" and instead of picking myself up- i let it get me- and I so know that fear is the worst thing to overcome. But you are such a beautiful person- inside and out- (no bs here-kk???) and you have to remember that you so deserve to be healthy AND happy!!!! I could tell you some horror stories you would never believe- and every single day is a struggle for me, from the time i wake up until i finally pass out- but every morning i have written in the hottest red lipstick i have I AM BEAUTIFUL!!!!! Sometimes i look at it and say yeah, right, others, not so bad- and there were times it was just hard to even LOOK at myself in the mirror. Just go one day at a time, do little things like wear your prettiest blouse, or put on sexy perfume just to go grocery shopping- but do these little things for YOU!!! YOU ARE WONDERFUL AND AMAZING!!! If you ever EVER need anyone or just feel like chatting i am here- i know you don't know me- and if i have overstepped in any way, please forgive me- i just read your blog and have walked in your shoes- and i just wanted to tell you there is always a light at the end of the tunnel- just depends on what you want to see- and what i see is beautiful!!!! Hugs!!!
    1363 days ago
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