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Friday, March 15, 2013

I don't remember exactly when it started, but I remember being a charter member of the diet club before 10. I had to watch everything I ate, what I couldn't eat, and being a performer and model, evolving into THE EATING DISORDER CLUB was a very easy step. My whole self worth was based on a number, and I honestly cannot say when the last time I felt comfortable with food was, and I certainly don't remember the last time I truly liked myself.
But isn't that kinda the whole point? We starve ourselves, deprive ourselves, work out until we drop just to exalt a number on a scale or on a tag of a piece of clothing, becoming a slave to what someone has decided should be "our number"?
I have been 290 pounds, and I have worn childrens clothing, and at neither time do I remember being happy with myself. It just wasn't enough, because the whole root of the problem wasn't what I looked like, but in genuinely loving myself. It truly doesn't' matter what size you wear or what you look like. It is WHO YOU ARE that makes up the person that is you. If you are truly happy and healthy mentally as well as physically, then a number shouldn't matter.
But loving yourself, and appreciating who and what you are should be your biggest goal in life. Live it! Love you! Because YOU deserve to be happy.
I have realized that nothing to do with weight can define me, and I am so happy and excited to be here, to learn how to eat for my body to be strong, to be healthy, and to love who I am.
Nothing else truly matters then, does it?
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    I like how you are so validating and affirming.

    I hope that I will continue to learn and practice

    loving myself. Just as you are suggesting!

    StormyBelle56 emoticon emoticon
    1765 days ago
    You described my former life. Thank you for this blog emoticon emoticon
    1809 days ago

    AMEN!!!!!! We can accomplish anything through HIM!!!! Have a very blessed and beautiful day!!!!!
    1831 days ago
  • KLS1966
    MANY of us can relate to yo-yo dieting, binging, purging, eating when we are sad, stressed, and/or happy. The sad thing is that we try to hide our problems. We think nobody else feels like we feel. Doing what we are doing now . . . sharing and having someone to lean on is the start. You are right, it's not what our overall appearance is, but who we are to one another in life. If we took the the time each morning to remind ourselves of this, we would go through life thinking differently. We can't take our money or body with us when we die, so maybe praying more often and by leaning on Christ to help us will enable us to get to a happy and healthy place.
    1831 days ago
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