I don't know...
Friday, March 15, 2013
I don't know what to write here, but I'm hoping that if I force myself to write here every day and talk about how I'm doing, perhaps it will force me to get stuff done so that I can brag here instead of admitting laziness and defeat!
I have never been thin, but I now see the difference between healthy plump and unhealthy fat. I am tired, I am sore, I am grumpy. I used to just have a flabby tummy, but now I have fat hands and feet. Sometimes when I catch myself in the mirror or in a photo, I feel like I can see the person I used to be staring out at me, underneath all the extra weight, she's in there somewhere. I want to be me again.
I am getting married on October 5, 2013. I bought my dress and it's a size 20. My arms look gross in it and I have an unhidable spare tire around my middle. My dress is BEAUTIFUL... I need to deserve this dress, I need to do this dress justice! This is why I want to lose weight.
I cannot wait to have children of my own. I am about to turn 30, so I'd really ideally like to have them in the next couple of years. I don't want to be too unhealthy to have a successful pregnancy. I don't want to teach my children to be a lazy emotional-eater like me! This is why I want to be healthy.
I took a yoga class and the instructor told us every day to set our intentions. Every day before we started our workout she told us to channel that intention and keep it with us throughout the session. I am going to try to remember to do this every day, when I wake up, when I choose my meals, when I decide whether or not to exercise... set my intention. I want to lose weight, I want to be healthy, for my future children and for myself.
DO IT, Katie, just do it.