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Friday, March 15, 2013

I’m just so phoning it in today. I’ve had a very busy week, stressful on all fronts, and I just can’t bring myself to concentrate or do any work. Probably not something I should be writing on a work computer, eh? Brain fog has taken over.

I weighed myself this morning to find that I’ve gained 5 pounds since starting my job. This is not good news, but it gave me the extra kick in the butt to find out why I still haven’t been granted access to the fitness room here in the building.

Turns out, the building doesn’t have me listed as an employee. So I spent the morning dealing with the CompanyIWorkFor and getting the necessary paperwork filed. Tuesday, I’ve been told, I’ll be able to use that room. Just when I’m going to use it still puzzles me, but I’ll figure it out. Like, perhaps a couple of days a week I’ll shell out the $10 to have my dog brought home from daycare so I can work out when the working day is though.

See, I work until 4:30. I imagine I wouldn’t get to the gym and change until 5:15. If I take 45 minutes, that has me leaving work at 6. (Assuming I don’t shower?!) I have to pick up the puppy by 7. That’s cutting it too close - with no traffic at all, I can make it in 45 minutes. There is rarely no traffic. But OK. I can justify the expense if I think of it as spending $20-30 a week to belong to a gym. That’s a good price, isn’t it? (Please don’t contradict me. I couldn’t handle it!)

But you know, since I don’t have a workout schedule I haven’t been working out at all. Ever. Except for the dog walks and a few 10-minute videos here and there, no exercise has touched this body. That and my incredibly lax eating is how that 5 pounds happened.
All or nothing thinking – I’m so very guilty of this. So I’m going to do two workouts this weekend. At least. I’m exhausted from the week and I don’t know if I can get on that step tonight. It really has been a very, very busy week. Crazy busy. Not terrible busy, but “no time to breathe” busy.

Yesterday started out as a great food day, that ended with a small bag of chocolate-covered pretzels and pizza. A combo that got me so sick that I …uh… got sick. It is no surprise today that I’ve been SO very regimented and have NO interest in the Friday treats littering the office today.

So much more to say, too lazy to type it. So I’ll leave my Punim the Wonder Puppy story for the weekend. Suffice it to say, he’s almost two, and he’s trying to assert his manliness.
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    HEY!!!!! You're no dummy.....you will figure this out just as you have solved all of your other problems....like finding a job. I haven't been involved in the SPARKS program for several months, having spent too much time on the computer and no time on the treadmill. However, when I was more actively communicating with Sparkfriends, you were one of my favorites, as I enjoyed reading your crazy methods of attacking problems.

    1728 days ago
    I'm so behind on catching up on freinds' blogs! This is the first one of yours I've read in ages! I hope you have figured out a way to exercise and take care of your precious pooch! I hope you are making great use of that fitness center and it is a great price to pay! Hoping all is going well for you! Take care and kiss that puppy for me!
    1742 days ago
    We all get off track. I did "big time" yesterday. It sounds like you are taking steps to get back on track, so you are thinking about it, and want to do it. You have the stress of a new job, and that takes time. Keep working on it !! emoticon emoticon
    1774 days ago
  • MLH148
    So much of what you say rings so true -- it's so easy to get OFF TRACK. But the small steps help. Is there any way to exercise early? I know the day care things gets tricky. But, if you were able to do it BEFORE work, you might even get extra in with that dog walk at the end of the day. It would require a shower at work, tho and sometimes that's not doable.
    Hope you can get back into a comfortable place soon.
    Good luck!
    (And do tell about the dog. emoticon
    1774 days ago
    Today is a new day. You need to put your workout out on your calendar likes it's an appointment for your job. Don't cancel on yourself. emoticon I KNOW you can!! emoticon
    1774 days ago
    You'll get it together Michelle. It's always hard when you start a new job; they say it takes 6-8 months for a person to really learn their job and get in the groove of it. Add onto that the other priorities you're trying to juggle. You'll get there.. sounds like you have a plan to get fitness and eating back under control. Hey, at least you're thinking on that - some folks just throw their hands up, give up and go to town on old habits! And some folks don't even realize they've gained 5 or more pounds! So you're ahead of the game a bit! :)
    1775 days ago
    I like the idea of scheduling 2 or 3 days at the fitness center. That should get you back on track.

    Looking forward to more about Punim the Wonder Puppy!

    Know I'm always here for you!
    1775 days ago
    You might feel that it is an off day-but if you are making steps to gain access to the gym, it's not a loss. emoticon
    1775 days ago
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