Friday, March 15, 2013
I've recently gone indoor "rock" climbing for the first time. I've had a long-time (is forever a long time?) fear of heights and at 32, have done only a few things in the past to challenge it. I came to the wall with confidence that I didn't have before. My thoughts: I've been strength training - I know I'm strong enough; my partner is below - he's going to keep me safe; I'm just going to do it once and then it will be done; STOP THINKING - you'll talk yourself out of it. I ended up doing 4 different routes that day. At times I had to pause to rest or just reflect. I'm DOING this. I can finish what I've started. Each time felt a little less daunting, but still frightening.
Now that it's done, I am feeling relief (from the burden of my fear), energized and excited to get a new sense of my inner strength.
By no means is my fear gone, but I'm excited to say it controls me a little less than it did. Even though my wellness journey has been ongoing for the past 4 years, I would say that this is one of the bigger "breakthroughs" that I've experienced in that time.
Even though I regularly watch shows like the Biggest Loser, I'm still amazed what breaking out of the "comfort zone" can really do. I have no plans to sky-dive or bungee jump but right now, I can be proud of doing something that was on my "never" list.
In these moments, I feel a little more like myself. The self I've only started to be acquainted with in the past few years. The self I plan to get to know more intimately...