Friday, March 15, 2013
Yesterday was a busy day. I left work early to head over to my youngest DS's school (age 7) for a surprise baby shower for his teacher. It was the last day of school before spring break. They got out early AND it was also DS age 7 and DS age 11 PT conferences. I had planned well with my eating. I had enough time to stop by the house on the way to the baby shower to unload my groceries that I'd taken to work, arrived at the shower on time, and surprised teacher & DS who had no idea we were going to show up. I had PT conf with teacher after the party and headed home to gather more kids - Oldest DS had prom committee meeting at 4:00 and middle son had PT conf at 4:10. It was just a busy but organized "feeling good about myself" kind of day. I had a roast in the crock pot. I had a clean kitchen and we were off to be productive! PT conferences with middle son weren't the best, but I discussed with one of his teachers a plan of action and was feeling good about this newly organized person that I'm nearly becoming HA HA!
Then came Zumba - which I LOVE and cannot say enough good things about. Since the time change (daylight savings time) I brought my kiddos with me so they could play on the playground next door to where I do Zumba at. We have a back door in our class. I could see them through the glass and go open it and check on them if I didn't see them. So... I got to class a bit early. There was only 2 other women in there. Now, let me say... I'm a funny person. I try not to take life to seriously. Zumba was extremely difficult for me at first but I laughed and took it in stride. I nearly have it down now! Nearly! LOL! The 2 women that were there have not been coming to class very long but one is very serious about it and before I say what the point of this blog is, let me say that I am VERY proud of this woman, whomever she is for coming to class and being dedicated and trying! Because really that's what it's all about. Putting your best foot forward and laughing at the process. Right? Anyway, I could see them in the mirror (pretty sure they forgot the mirror was there) and they were talking about me! No doubt. Both looking at me and very obviously talking about me. Heat came over me. Not sure if it was anger or embarrassment or both. And my thoughts - Yea I weigh over 200 lbs and I wear stretch pants and a tank top to Zumba. It's friggin ZUMBA! Would I be caught dead in that outfit at say Walmart. Well heck no! At least not without a layer to hide what I feel like needs hiding. Anyway, I had to stop right there and give myself a speech. This goes back to my post yesterday about being an encouragement. One thing that came to mind while I stood there trying to shake this off was "it isn't your business what ppl are saying about you!" It could've been fabulous things they were saying. They could have been wondering how long I've been coming to Zumba. Or maybe they've overheard our instructor ask me how much weight I've lost. Who knows!? They may have been making fun of my shoes. But the fact is, it really isn't my business what they are saying about me! Because if I let this get in my head, it could really screw with me! HEAR ME: It isn't your business what people are saying about you! Got it!? Ok good. LOL!
So please! PLEASE! If you see someone whispering behind your back at you and you can't help but hear in your mind their voices, try your darndest to think of the absolutely BEST thing that they could be saying about you and ASSUME that one and not the worst. And smile and move on! Do your Zumba or whatever it is like you normally would and don't let someone steal your JOY! You are doing this for YOU! Not to please anyone else. If someone is encouraged in your process then EVEN BETTER! Continue to hold your head high and be that encouragement that you know you are! Because YOU ARE WORTH IT!