Friday, March 15, 2013
If you watched "Lost in Space" then you know Will's robot was a pseudo-parent, alerting him to dangers like a parent would but without the emotion of a parent.
I need a new inner-robot.
I go through several days where my diet is on track, my exercise is on track and then for whatever reason (PMS, work, happiness, sadness, thoughts about things) I grab a cookie out of the bag or dip into a handful of chips. My inner-robot purrs, "It's okay. It's just a little." That leads to more of the same. Do most people do this? Or rather, do most people who have a normal relationship with food do this? I don't think so.
My relationship with food is based on emotion and impulse. I want it. I eat it. That relationship has greatly improved over the last five years but the core problem is still there. My inner-robot is permissive and then ready to criticize after the fact. "What did you do that for?! You just screwed it up again! You will never get this right!"
I need a new inner-robot. I am tired of living with this passive-aggressive one. I need to work on creating one more like Will Robinson's - unemotional and proactive.
Danger! Walk away!
Danger! You are not hungry!
Danger! That will hurt you!
Danger! That has no nutritional value!
Danger! Find a better option!
Danger! Drink some water!
Danger! Call a friend!
Danger! Write a blog!
I need to alert myself to better behavior, not crappy feelings. So for today, I am going to retrain my inner-robot.