Thursday, March 14, 2013
Tuesday and Wednesday sucked - OUT LOUD. I couldn't sleep Monday night due to the stomach blockage, so I stayed home on Tuesday. Was able to eat by lunchtime, but boy howdy - depression came over me like a STIFLING BLANKET. Got really weepy and tired and sad and just was miserable. It was still there yesterday so I stayed home again (stupidest thing to do during times like that - isolation just makes it worse). So I ate crap and felt like crap and zoned out with crap. CRAP.
I got up and came to work today, but now I have some SEVERE pain in my lower right back that I can now feel in my belly button area. Thinking it's kidneys? Appendix? More of the depression? (And yes, depression CAN cause physical pain.) But I'm here... that's the good news.
Other good news? I'M GOING TO BE OK. i'M GOING TO BE BACK ON TRACK. I have learned that NO AMOUNT OF LIFE'S CIRCUMSTANCES can keep me from my appointed goal of taking care of myself. Do I get depressed sometimes? YEP. Do I eat crap sometimes? YEP. Do I skip exercise sometimes? YEP. But NINETY PERCENT OF THE TIME, I AM ON TRACK. Which means the odds are in my favor - and I'm GOING TO WIN.
I GOT THIS.