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Life smacks me and I just keep going

Wednesday, March 13, 2013

It's not exactly been the best week so far. I had a pretty big blow yesterday when something I was hoping for (and I could not have been more qualified for) fell through. It would've made my life a lot easier for the next few years. I could have been at home more and would have finally had the funds to fix up my wreck of a house.

I had my 5 minutes of boo-hoo time, but at the moment where I would usually continue down the spiral of self-pity, something gave me a mental pep talk. I'd like to think it was God, but if that's not your particular flavor, I respect that as well.

Regardless, that little voice told me it would be fine. That if it didn't work out, there's a darn good reason why even if I can't see it right now. That something better will come my way and that was just not the direction I was supposed to go.

Now, I still had my moment of feeling overwhelmed, and my best friend helped talk me through that as she's always able to. But it's a serious growth moment for me to realize I reacted far differently than I would have just a few years ago. And it's was the worst possible time for me to deal with emotional stuffs because of that womanly thing that's been going on this week too.

Before, I would've laid out on the couch for a few weeks sulking. All kinds of bad food would have entered my gaping maw. I'd have felt hopeless and worthless and my self-confidence would've been stomped to the ground. There would've been no exercise.

How old me would've reacted:

Yet, yesterday I ate all my planned meals. And I will do the same today. I got up and swam laps this morning and will get on the bike for a while tonight.

I'm continuing on. Life did not go as planned and I got some sand kicked in my face. But I can't control it. The only thing I can control is how I react to it.

Now, this probably means I will not have the funds to purchase the bike and equipment I need for the June triathlon. My parents will gladly fund the new running shoes, but I'm considering that an early birthday present. I know they are necessary for any running plans, triathlon or not, in the hopes that I can keep my knee from becoming a problem again.

I am disappointed in this. But, once again, I'm not letting that stop me. If I can't go to that triathlon, why can't I just have my own at the Y? Set up a Saturday where I can go bike, run, and swim all at once, with the same distances I would've had at the one I planned to attend?

I almost made it to half a mile today in swimming. 14 laps out of 16. If I hadn't been running late for work, I would've finished the half mile in 30 minutes. That means I've been able to do both a 15 mile bike and a half mile swim. Not consecutively, not yet, but that's still a huge milestone. I knew swimming wouldn't be an issue, so for the next month or so, I just need to focus on getting faster on the bike and in the pool. I skipped ST all last week and that is not acceptable. I'm implementing a planned ST routine starting this week that will include free weights and core exercises.

I can't quit now. I won't. I will not squander away 2 months of slow and steady work to get this far. But I need to also figure out how to brighten up my life a bit while still getting the exercise in. Because in all other areas of my life other than exercise, I am feeling drained. That is the hardest challenge for me right now.

But it's always good to keep this in mind (LOL):

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
JORDANLHALL 3/18/2013 12:38AM

    For one thing I think your attitude and dedication are amazing! It's good that you allowed yourself a small time to sulk, then got passed it and moved on. You're right! If it didn't happen, that means it wasn't supposed to and that there are bigger and better things in store that you can't even begin to comprehend at this point in time!

Triathlon equipment or no, it sounds like you're going to succeed! Keep going, as corny as that sounds, and keep up the amazing work! I know you can do it! 14 out of 16 is pretty darn impressive in my book!

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BOPPY_ 3/15/2013 11:41PM


Quite simply, I'm very impressed.

Enjoy your workouts. You're getting better every day.


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ALOHAEV1 3/14/2013 5:10PM

    Awesome blog!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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LULUBELLE65 3/14/2013 7:54AM

I love the idea of staging your own tri!

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ELLENIRENE 3/14/2013 5:19AM

    sometimes we cannot change things that happen, so there's no point in dwelling on that fact-- Just emoticon

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KIMBERLY19732 3/14/2013 1:14AM

    Great att emoticon itude! You are on the path to success!

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PINKNFITCARLA 3/13/2013 11:00PM

    Love you attitude! It is so true, don't sweat the things you can't control, but controlling the things you can will get you far!

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CAGEDBIRDSONG 3/13/2013 10:17PM

    I think holding your own Triathalon at the Y is a great idea. I know it disappoints you to not be able to participate in the one you were planning. Maybe things will pull together and if not, there will be other triathlons and you will be even more prepared.

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KATYDID412 3/13/2013 9:16PM

    YOU have an AMAZING attitude. Awesome.

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GETSTRONGRRR 3/13/2013 9:03PM

    Well you know, that really is the best measure of strength & mental fitness; our ability to adapt & accept things not going our way.

Good job, you should be proud of how you handled this one!

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JUDY106 3/13/2013 8:55PM

    Proud of you for the positive reaction to this disappointment . You are in the right frame of mind. Keep it up. Sorry you had to go through it.

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METALJEN73 3/13/2013 7:00PM

    Every thing happens for a reason. I am sure a better opportunity is heading your way. Hang in there.


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KITT52 3/13/2013 5:37PM

    maybe something even better will come along.....God has a plan for you...

I saw a cat today that looked just like that one...


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LAILATN 3/13/2013 4:20PM

    I'm sorry things didn't pan out as you'd hoped. But you seem to be handling things well, with faith and humor and determination! emoticon emoticon

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MERRY_XMAS 3/13/2013 3:10PM

    That's the spirit!!! You can do it!

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MRLDCTYGRL 3/13/2013 3:08PM

    Good for you hun! Keep kicking at it!

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MICKEYMAX 3/13/2013 3:07PM

    I heart you! I understand where you are coming from. Hats off to you for hanging on - it is not always easy!!!

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ADARKARA 3/13/2013 3:04PM

    I think having your own tri is a wonderful idea! Challenge yourself.

Hopefully things will work themselves out for you soon. emoticon

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LATTELEE 3/13/2013 3:00PM

  Good quotes

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