Update posted at the end...
I know I haven't been changing my status or blogging. But, life's mean streak decided to come crashing down. My brother is still causing great stress in both my parent's life and mine. And I thought that was bad enough. Then, on top of that, my back goes out and has stayed "out" regardless of rest, movement, medication, no medication, nothing makes a difference.
And then there's this:
This is Bitty Girl, or I also call her PeePee. There's no reason for the nickname, I just started calling her that. She is my, somewhere between, 13-15 year old kitty. I had noticed that she was hiding herself but didn't give it much thought until she hid under my bed for an entire day. I pulled her out and put her on my bed. And there she has stayed.
She hasn't eaten.
She hasn't drank.
She peed on my bed in a couple places and I could care less. The last time it was bloody.
She is dying.
Those of you who have read some of my blogs know that I do not have two-legged children so my babies are of the four-legged purring kind.
And therefore, my heart has exploded with pain. I have cried on and off, and even as I'm writing this, for the past two days. I laid beside her crossways my bed for the past two nights; staying awake to remove the dried, crusted snot from her nose so she can breathe.
I would like to believe she understands when I tell her that she doesn't have to struggle anymore to go ahead and let go, that she is a beautiful kitty, and I love her. Even if she doesn't understand, it's true so why not tell her?
Granted, there will be some who think I've lost it to be so broken up over "a cat." Well, you don't really want to know what I have to say to you.
Before I realized she was dying, I was struggling because I couldn't exercise because of the back pain. Now, I wish that was the only pain with which I am dealing.
I'll hopefully be back soon, blogging with my usual picturesque humor.
But for now, my heart is breaking, my back hurts, and my face is swollen from tears.
And that, my dear Sparkler friends, is why I'm in crisis mode.
An update: She began suffering on Thursday around 1AM so when I could I called the vet and took her in to be euthanized. My best friend took me and cried with me. But, now Bitty is no longer suffering and is playing at The Rainbow Bridge waiting for me to join her and all my other four-legged babies! Thank you all for your words of encouragement and support.