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Why Crisis Mode?


Wednesday, March 13, 2013

Update posted at the end...

I know I haven't been changing my status or blogging. But, life's mean streak decided to come crashing down. My brother is still causing great stress in both my parent's life and mine. And I thought that was bad enough. Then, on top of that, my back goes out and has stayed "out" regardless of rest, movement, medication, no medication, nothing makes a difference.
And then there's this:

This is Bitty Girl, or I also call her PeePee. There's no reason for the nickname, I just started calling her that. She is my, somewhere between, 13-15 year old kitty. I had noticed that she was hiding herself but didn't give it much thought until she hid under my bed for an entire day. I pulled her out and put her on my bed. And there she has stayed.

She hasn't eaten.
She hasn't drank.
She peed on my bed in a couple places and I could care less. The last time it was bloody.
She is dying.

Those of you who have read some of my blogs know that I do not have two-legged children so my babies are of the four-legged purring kind.
And therefore, my heart has exploded with pain. I have cried on and off, and even as I'm writing this, for the past two days. I laid beside her crossways my bed for the past two nights; staying awake to remove the dried, crusted snot from her nose so she can breathe.
I would like to believe she understands when I tell her that she doesn't have to struggle anymore to go ahead and let go, that she is a beautiful kitty, and I love her. Even if she doesn't understand, it's true so why not tell her?

Granted, there will be some who think I've lost it to be so broken up over "a cat." Well, you don't really want to know what I have to say to you.

Before I realized she was dying, I was struggling because I couldn't exercise because of the back pain. Now, I wish that was the only pain with which I am dealing.

I'll hopefully be back soon, blogging with my usual picturesque humor.
But for now, my heart is breaking, my back hurts, and my face is swollen from tears.
And that, my dear Sparkler friends, is why I'm in crisis mode.

An update: She began suffering on Thursday around 1AM so when I could I called the vet and took her in to be euthanized. My best friend took me and cried with me. But, now Bitty is no longer suffering and is playing at The Rainbow Bridge waiting for me to join her and all my other four-legged babies! Thank you all for your words of encouragement and support.

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ILOVEMALI 4/5/2013 1:12PM

  I am so sorry.

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SNUZSUZ 3/16/2013 8:22AM

    I'm so sorry!

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CINDYSDAY 3/15/2013 4:51PM

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ITISABOUTME 3/14/2013 10:28PM

    So sorry for your loss. Our pets are very important to us and very much a part of the family. Take care and hope your heart heals quickly!! emoticon

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MARIANNE9855 3/14/2013 1:59AM

    So sorry about your kitty-they really are our best friends in a way that humans never are- hopefully she will have peace soon.
It seems like you have had more than your share of trials and hard times recently- I so hope things get better.
Remember we are all here for you

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LILLIPUTIANNA 3/13/2013 7:36PM

    Oh! You poor thing! My husband and I recently had to put down our 12 year old basset hound. So, I understand completely! I hope your kitty passes soon, and easily. Be there for her. Comfort her. I'm sure she knows you love her.

Be well.

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BABYBLUESMOMMA 3/13/2013 4:05PM

    There's no such thing as "only a cat"
I have a fur baby in addition to my human one. My other 13 year old fur baby died 3 years ago. Similar situation, she was laying in the middle of the floor in the way like always, so I went to nudge her with my foot. Instead of getting up and walking away, she just let me push her. By the next day she couldn't/wouldn't get up. We had scheduled an appt to have her euthanized the following day, but she passed during the night. Losing a pet can be very devastating and you are in my thoughts.

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BEEJAY49 3/13/2013 3:56PM

    My heart truly goes out to you. I too had the 4 legged babies all my life and it was very painful when they went to the rainbow bridge. I hurt for you also. My thoughts and prayers are with you and the little one. God Bless and Hugs!

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TERMITEMOM 3/13/2013 3:20PM

    Don't let anybody tell you that pets do not matter. They do, nad they become a part of who you are. I am very sorry for you. Are you familiar with the Rainbow Bridge poem?

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ARCHIMEDESII 3/13/2013 2:54PM

    Pets are part of the family. I know I cried when my cat had to be put down. the poor thing was suffering from kidney failure. We all new it was time. It was a sad moment for everyone.

I'm so sorry to hear about your Peepee.

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TKLBRIDGET 3/13/2013 1:49PM

    I am so sorry about your kitty. My cat booboo kitty died 5 years ago (she was 16) and I still think about her often. She was my roadcat and went everywhere with me. Hopefully your kitty is not in a lot of pain and will pass peacefully.
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SIMONEKP 3/13/2013 12:37PM

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SOTIREDOFTHIS 3/13/2013 12:29PM

  I am weeping as I write this. I feel your pain. I am a cat lover and owner and do have a two legged baby. The animals are a part of our family. Obviously their ailing pales in comparison to that of which I would feel if my son was sick. But, my family and I would still be crushed if anything were to happen to the four legged ones.

I had 2 cats before I had my son. I had them a long time and they both ended up having to be put to sleep, we spent thousands of $$ trying to help them and keep them alive, but they both had cancer. In the end the humane thing for us was to have them put to sleep, it was a very difficult decision. When we had one of the cats, that preferred my husband, put to sleep, my husband actually shed tears.......I had never seen him cry until then. So, even though they are animals, they indeed become part of your family.

I am so sorry for All of your pain....I truly hope that something wonderful is awaiting you around the next corner. You deserve a break!

Hugs to you.....

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DIET_FRIEND 3/13/2013 12:03PM

    I'm so sorry that you are suffering and that you will be losing a good companion that you've had for a long time. emoticon

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NEEDBU66 3/13/2013 11:53AM

    My heart goes out to you for the illness of your sweet little kittie. It is a terrible thing to lose our pets and the pain is just as great as if it was one of your two-legged kids.
This poem came to mind so I'm copying and pasting it for you:
Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.

When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge.
There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together.
There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.

All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor; those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by.
The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.

They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent; His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.

You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.

Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together....

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KIMBERLY19732 3/13/2013 11:47AM

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GRAMPIAN 3/13/2013 11:46AM

  Hope your cat doesn't have to suffer too much.

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