Wednesday, March 13, 2013
So yesterday I posted that I was really angry with my hubby who had decided that he's just going to pack up and move.
We talked last night and I explained that I can't just uproot our two kids and our whole lives just because he wants to join some Voluntaryism community. I asked him what he expected to be different there since we don't really interact with anyone here anyway. He explained that he doesn't like the government in our state and he wants to be included in a community that is actually working toward changing the Federal government, not just talking about it. He said he doesn't want to leave me, he wants to move there first to find a job and a place to live and then have me and the kids follow him. I asked what we were supposed to do while he was away and he said he could bring the kids with him if it's easier, but he hadn't thought about who was going to watch them while he's working.
In the end, he admitted that it's really just a dream and he's upset that I'll never see it his way. As much as I hate seeing that look of utter disappointment and defeat on his face, I just can't move away without a plan. He said he knows I'm the sane one and he's the crazy one...I do feel bad that he feels like I'm always shooting his ideas down. Then again, if he'd come up with ideas that are manageable, I just might agree with him... I don't like the government either and I'd do some things to change, but not this drastic.
So, I feel much better. He's not leaving and I think he'll be okay with it. He said he doesn't resent me for it and he'll get over it. I hope both of those statements are true.