Wednesday, March 13, 2013
I had been having such a great stretch of successes and then yesterday I realized I couldn't ignore the toothache that I've had for almost a week. It was time to bite the bullet and go to the dentist. Which means I must have been in real pain because I never go to the dentist without a really good reason. Well, turns out the dentist thinks I might need a root canal. Yuck! But I can't put it off because I hate the pain.
So after the dentist yesterday I went home and pretty much did nothing. I sat in front of the tv, watched mindless shows and just wanted to eat. The old habits come back so quickly! I was sitting around, not doing anything, tired and all I wanted to do was eat. I did manage to find healthy food to eat, and I didn't mess up my calories or anything, but I just was sitting there realizing that this is what my life used to be like. I clearly can't do that any more. Not watching tv during the week is something I must work into my schedule and set of new habits. It was too easy to fall back into the old routine.
I was scared when I realized all of this last night. I have to put as much attention into how I spend my time at home as I do picking healthy foods and spending time at the gym. I was exhausted last night and finally just went to bed early. I slept nearly 10 hours and am feeling so much better this morning. I guess I needed the break from the gym and some extra sleep. I so want to make this lifestyle stick for me, and every day I just need to renew that commitment and attack the day as if it's the first day again. I can't let myself think that making these decisions are going to be easier in the futre. It has gotten easier to avoid my trigger foods, but I'm not yet addicted to exercise or the gym!
When does Spring get here? I want to be someone who works out in the morning, that is something I will have to work for in the future. Maybe that would help my sleeping, or at least that's what I've learned from the "experts." Can I explain to everyone how much help sparkpeople has been to me during the past three months? I can't say enough good things about it. The sense of community here is amazing, and I'm learning from every one of you! I know that I'm not the only one who sits in front of the tv and mindlessly eats, and I'm not the only one who needs help feeling motivated to get my lazy butt to the gym. Knowing I'm not alone is the best motivation in the world.
Have a great Wednesday everyone!