Wednesday, March 13, 2013
Maybe I just wanted to torture myself. I was already feeling miserable. It's that time of the month and I had a horrible headache, I was feeling nauseous, I was exhausted from a full day of work, tutoring, and the gym, I hadn't been home for over 12 hours and I guess I either wasn't thinking or felt like torturing myself some more. But for whatever reason, I stepped on the scale and it actually wasn't quite as bad as I thought. Even though I was weighing at night (usually I weigh first thing in the morning), I was at 170, which is not horrible. The lowest number I'd seen on the scale recently was 164.4 but that was a morning weigh-in and probably a fluke... I had been regularly weighing in around 165 or 166 in the mornings, so I figure I've gained a couple of pounds, but it's not the end of the world. I just have to start taking my own advice to others. I need to start making the best decision I can with any decision I face. Each little decision will add up. If the majority are good, then things will change for the better. If the majority are bad, then things will get worse... If I can keep that in mind, maybe I'll start the next step in this journey. I'm pushing to get myself into the 150s. Hopefully I can do it.