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Wednesday, March 13, 2013

About 6 months ago, I had just returned home from the hospital after my first major surgery. Although my recovery went well, I wasn't able to exercise or life anything more than 5 pounds for about 8 weeks. Just when I would have been able to start working out again, I learned that I would need a second surgery due to an unexpected cancer risk. Needless to say, I was worried, depressed, and frustrated. I could have attempted to lose weight between my surgeries, but I didn't. I wanted to wait until I was really and truly out of the woods.

I had the second surgery on Christmas eve. At the time, I was really sad to be spending Christmas in the hospital. Looking back, I realize that it may have been my greatest gift. Facing my own mortality so intimately was certainly scary, but it also woke something up in me.

Having these two surgeries removed my last genuine physical obstacle that kept me from losing weight- excruciatingly painful and debilitating periods. They would begin whenever I would approach my current weight, and knock me out. Regaining the weight I'd lost was an adaptive strategy for me, so that I could avoid that agony. It worked, but it certainly wasn't healthy.

Now that I don't have to worry about that anymore, I feel completely ready to commit myself to this process- however long it takes. The way I see it, I'm (hopefully) going to be alive for many more years. I can either spend those years making mostly healthy choices that will likely earn me even more longevity, or I can fritter whatever time I have left away with unhealthy choices, feeling lethargic and sitting on the sidelines of life. I don't want to waste any more time wondering where I might be if only I'd started this months ago.

For the past two months, I have rededicated myself to getting healthy. I have been tracking all my food to the best of my ability and eating lots of fresh fruits and veggies. I have been drinking tons of water and not much else (Kombucha or hot tea on occasion), and, most importantly for me, I have been exercising every single day.

Exercise, for me, has always been the key to weight loss. I began by walking. As I was still recovering from my second surgery, I wasn't able to go fast, but I could go far. And so I did. My two month average is currently at about 12 miles of walking per day.

About two weeks ago, I finally got medical clearance to start working out more intensely, to begin swimming, and to begin lifting weights. In order to celebrate, I joined a gym. I love it and have gone nearly every day. I've tried several new fitness classes, gone swimming, used the elliptical machine, restarted couch to 5k using the treadmill, and started strength training.

Since joining the gym, my weight loss has all but stalled. I've lost less than three pounds in the past 2 weeks. I know that's not terrible, but compared to the fact that I was losing an average of 3-3.5 pounds a week prior to joining the gym, I'm feeling frustrated. I suppose I could claim that it's because I'm gaining muscle, but I'm apprehensive about making that sort of claim. The only two changes I've made are working out much more intensely at the gym, and trying to eat a lot more protein.

All this said, I'm not giving up. I'll just keep plugging away and working hard. Eventually the changes will come. I do have goals I'd love to hit, but I'm not on any hard and fast timeline. I have the rest of my life to do this, and this is something I'll be working on for the rest of my life, regardless of whether or not I achieve my goals.
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MPRILL 3/13/2013 11:33PM

    You are doing awesome.

Sometimes the body needs to adjust to the new activity, you could be gaining muscle or even retaining water. Hat_Wright is right about the calories - make sure you are eating enough. The scale will move.

Hang in there!

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UNSWEETMAMA 3/13/2013 10:54PM

    Keep at it. The scale will move.
Are you careful to drink enough water? emoticon

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NEW-N-FIT-ME 3/13/2013 8:43PM

    Great Blog, specially when you say you have the rest of your life to do this! It's so right! Sometimes we focus on something like the numbers on the scale and forget that by trying to modify that, the healthier choices we make are an added bonus.
I'm so sure that the scale will move... But I also know that you can focus on the inches, the heart rate, the resistance and a lot more things to keep you motivated and show you that you are moving forward.

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JSNYDER68 3/13/2013 8:19PM

    When I initially started working out I had the same thing happen. Yes you are going muscle but watching your calorie intact is important as stated by HAT_WRIGHT. The numbers can be very tricky and touchy, a little but to far one way or another and the weight loss seems to stall. Good luck with the number game and keep blogging. I really like knowing that other people out there are feeling the same as me.

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HAT_WRIGHT 3/13/2013 4:00PM

    Hi Lady!!!! Way to go, I am soooooo glad you are blogging, as we have a similar mindset. That being said, I do have some input into the scale slowing down.
1-Have you increased your calorie intake? Since you are working out harder, you will need more calories to keep our body out of starvation mode. Once I went back into the nutrition tracker, I found a way to adjust this. I found that since I am burning about 2000-2500 calories a week I needed to add an extra 110 calories to my day. It's not a ton, it's a banana, or a hard boiled egg and an orange, but it has got the scale moving again.So for sure check that out, because I know how frustrating that number not moving can be.
2-you are adding muscles to your frame, so it may be time to break out the measuring tape, or the calipers. If the gym did a body fat measurement test, or measured you when you stared, ask them to do it again at the end of the month. It is normally complimentary, since they want you to get results so you keep going.

Chin up lady, you are doing REALLY well!!! It will come off, my mom always says to me, it didn't take you a week to put the pounds on, so it will take longer then a week for it to come off=) Although I wish it would.

Here's to healthy living, a day at a time!

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MCJULIEO 3/13/2013 11:33AM

    You are absolutely gaining muscle

AND all that muscle will be burning calories even when you are resting!

So, Yay, YOU!

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METALJEN73 3/13/2013 10:17AM

    Good luck and I know you can do it!

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UWPALUM 3/13/2013 8:58AM

    You can absolutely do this! Sometimes our bodies decide, for no real reason I can figure out, that it doesn't want to give up any weight. You can get through this though. Keep your eyes forward, on your goals and work every day to achieve it! Keep it up!

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MJRVIC2000 3/13/2013 8:12AM

    Be "Transported To Blessedness" today and give God all the glory! Vic.

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