The good, the bad, the ugly.
Wednesday, March 13, 2013
I would like to think that I am normal in that I struggle daily with negative self-talk. I think a lot more people deal with this than will admit...but that is just my opinion. I have a case in point so read on.
I confess that I am not the most positive person in the world but I have been working on it. I mean, actively working on saying positive things and hoping that it will spur a positive outcome (kinda like positive thinking, but out loud). Sometimes I say the opposite of what pops into my head and thereby stun people with my positivity (oh, if they only knew the dark thoughts I have). It is a major work in progress.
So, Sunday I was feeling really bitchy and PMS'ing (which didn't help - sorry if you are a guy and reading this but hey, it is a fact of female life, so deal with it). I was at work and crabby and really (already) dreading the following work night because I was scheduled to work with a new girl on the busiest night of the week (normally) and well, I was kinda feeling sorry for myself. I was actually getting all worked up and I was mad that my boss paired me with this girl who can only work one section of the lab when I will be stuck working all the other 4 sections plus answer her questions and keep up with workload/maintenance/quality control and watch over my shoulder to make sure she doesn't mess up. GRRRRR. I was so stressed. I actually thought about calling in sick (which I NEVER do) just so I wouldn't have to deal with it. That is how negative I was feeling. I knew it was stupid, I knew I was being a big baby and that I should just get over myself.....that is when I turned it around. I really credit SparkPeople for helping me in this transition.
I started telling myself that this is an opportunity to shine. That my boss would not put me in this position unless she had confidence in my ability and how valued I should feel. Then I took it a step further and decided that this new girl could benefit from my expertise and how I should mentor her share my awesomeness. I almost convinced myself to be excited for this opportunity.
Here is how my night went....I showed up, it was not busy at all and the new girl and I got along fabulously. We worked, we chatted, I got to shine a bit and then the night was over. Boy did I feel dumb for all the worry and negative self talk. I should just choose to be positive and banish all that negativity. Bullya!
Have you turned a negative into a positive? Has Spark People helped you change your way of thinking? Let me know in the comments. Thanks for reading!!!!!