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AWFUL DAY :( I am losing it


Wednesday, March 13, 2013

I think I am loseing all my determination and a lot faster then I thought I would.....
So my children and I just started our night walks again because it is starting to be a little better weather. We walk up to the school so they can play, I can walk and I can still keep an eye on them and we all are doing this together so every one can be more active. Well today as I am walking around the school playgound I notice some other people staring at me and I start feeling very uncomfertable and all of sudden all these feelings came up and I GAVE UP, I decied to just sit down my daughter came over and asked why I wasnt walking I told her that I was just tired and to go and play. As I sit there feeling bad, upset, and disgusted with my self I noticed this mom playing with her son chaseing him, going up and down the slide with him and haveing a good time with her son. That made me feel even worse because that is what I want so bad and yet I am sitting on the out side just watching my kids play.
To make everything worse today after we get home I sat here and ate my feelings, Honestly I some of it I didn't really notice and some at the time I just didn't care I temperally had givin up. Now sitting here I just feel like crap...... Sorry for the self lothing blog just had to get it out to someone even just typing it makes me feel better lol bye
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REBIRTHDIVA 3/14/2013 1:59PM

    don't give up on yourself so easily! emoticon
i'm an emotional eater so i know what it's like to stuff your emotions with food. i used to do it all the time. by taking small steps every day i have made positive healthy lifestyle changes. i tell myself all the time it didn't take me overnight to put on all the weight so why do i think i can lose it that way?! emoticon

stop beating up on yourself. you deserve success, you are worthy! emoticon there will be ups and downs, just keep moving forward emoticon

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AURORAMILLET 3/14/2013 1:39PM

    Don't give up. You can do it!

Take one day at a time!

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MISSCUS 3/13/2013 7:28AM

    It is hard to keep going when thoughts like those happen. With more self love, and the realization that people who see you don't know what road you have traveled on simply cannot judge you. At least you are trying to walk andlose weight. The other comments are true too, you DON"T know what other people are thinking. As an RN I've noticed that most people are usually thinking of themselves. It's their ego. People also have a tendency to look right through other people and not think anything at all about other people.
So, walk, do what you want to do for your health, and keep doing it. Someday you will look back on that day, and say "What was I thinking?" Think self love.

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DAJAMOGU1 3/13/2013 5:04AM

    Please don't give up! As hard as it is, don't let others discourage you. When I go out walking I can sense people looking at me. At first I thought, "They are staring at me adn are disgusted by my weight." Then a friend pointed out that I had not way of knowing what they were thinking and suggested that maybe they were saying, " Good for her. I wish I was that dedicated.".

So now, when I walk, if people stare at me I just tell myself they are thinking positive things.

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SPSPSP1 3/13/2013 2:45AM

    So glad you shared. These feelings happen to just about everyone. It's totally okay. Everyone is entitled to their opinion (including the people staring at you). But, opinions don't make something true. YOU DECIDE whether you want to be healthy or not. And, know that, no matter what, you are worthy of having a life you love. Lastly, I heard someone on Spark Radio talk about a member who had a bad day. Then, she realized that "just because one tire had a puncture did not mean she had to puncture the other three." Just patch up that 4th tire and keep on truckin!

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SPSPSP1 3/13/2013 2:28AM

    So glad you shared. These feelings happen to just about everyone. It's totally okay. Everyone is entitled to their opinion (including the people staring at you). But, opinions don't make something true. YOU DECIDE whether you want to be healthy or not. And, know that, no matter what, you are worthy of having a life you love. Lastly, I heard someone on Spark Radio talk about a member who had a bad day. Then, she realized that "just because one tire had a puncture did not mean she had to puncture the other three." Just patch up that 4th tire and keep on truckin!

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