Week is already dragging horribly by. But you know it is also one of those that goes just fast enough that it seems you need 5 extra hours in each day to get anything don... you know how that is right?
Ugh. My week started horribly! Day three of daylight savings time = day three of Sarah being late. We got a nasty storm on Sunday night so Monday morning was a treat on top of my lateness. I was freaking out over the fact I was going to be late to a quiz that my instructor would not let us make up. I have had three quizzes and one test and it is only Tuesday! Still in store is two more quizzes and another test. Along with my miscellaneous homework.
I also need to pack as I will be leaving for a northern spring break as soon as I am done with my test on Thursday, but my Wednesdays are packed and I have to study for aforementioned test. I think that stressed would be putting it lightly. I haven't been as motivated or productive lately which does not help any!
Today I had workout number dos with Jeff. If you recall my first workout led to two full days of leg pain (thanks to KT for the epsom salt bath tip, I think it really helped!). On Monday when my legs were finally feeling better, I spun the crap out of them to start all over again :)
But anyway. Today. I was a little worried what my workout might bring. "Uh, I have to remain with the living people for the next two days still, I have to be able to walk...", but alas was not that bad. We did some nutty squat moves (which killed my achey legs!). Then we did a two time circuit for time of 20 jumping jacks, 20 box jumps and 20 butterfly kicks. I did it in less than two minutes. He said we will do it again in a few workouts to see if I improve (I was under 2 mins ... although then he said, he thought maybe it was too easy for me so he might make it harder). Then we did shoulder and ab work. All in all. Not a bad workout.
My eating has really been sucking lately. Not only what I am eating but how much. I need to find some way to get that back on the bandwagon. I readjusted my workouts to what I have actually been doing (1 ST day and 120 mins of cardio (although that miiiight be stretching it most weeks...)) and my calories decreased even further. Not only do I need to eat better for myself, but I've joined a team challenge and want to contribute and not bring em down with no loss to show. As of this exact time I am banging my head against the wall because I just KNOW that with better nutrition I would be showing real progress. #trustintheprocess. #ugh
I am however drinking water like a champ!
Over spring break I am making the goal of getting the YMCA 3 days while I am home for weight lifting/cardio. My parents also have a treadmill somewhere in their basement. And maybe I could take the dog for nightly walks. I will also need to be really diligent about my food for two reasons: a) my mother is a stellar cook and has never gotten out of the habit of cooking for an army; b)I am participating at my vet's spay week and we usually have clients that make and bring us food since we are in surgery everyday until 2pm. Of course along with dinner comes dessert and whatever other crap. That one is gonna be tough. I am planning on bringing my own snacks and meals, but ahhhh. Ihhh. I don't feel good about that.
I was feeling pretty confident after I worked out today. Like good. During the workout, he said something about pushing me hard like I wanted and I was all "no for real, I need that, there isn't anything that I'm not capable of, I just have a weak mind". And later I thought about that. It's totally true. There is not a thing out there I physically can't do. But I often tell myself I can't. Or it's not for me. Or worse yet, I am afraid of failing, so I convince myself I didn't want to do it anyhow. That really struck me. There isn't anything I can't do. Bring it. I'll give it my all. I will.
So then I got ready for work on put on this pink sparkly tank top (I am longing for spring in case you can't tell) with my black leggings, boots and a long sleeve flowy cardigan. And let me tell you. I felt GOOD! I wish I would have taken a pictures. ohs well.
These two quotes are getting at me today:
"You get whatever you settle for"
"I wake up every day with the realization that this is it, that there's only one shot at this life and I can either enjoy the ride and live it to its fullest and to my highest potential or I can stay the way I am"
I don't want to settle friends. I want to be better. Do better. Eat better. Live better. I don't want to see life slip away as "wasted years" I want to by myself now. Love myself now. Do stuff now. I was recently amazed by how much more "myself" I was now than I ever have been. Isn't that funny. How you spend your whole life really learning to be who you are? Because you are always evolving. I think that is an interesting thing.
Sorry for the long ramble-ness. I have a lot on my mind (and my to-do list). Hopefully you are doing well this week. If you have nutrition advice/struggles/tips/whatevs, I would be happy to hear them!
Peace out girlscouts!
PS - ^ is my favorite emoticon here. She just looks so damn joyful. I love it!