Wednesday, March 13, 2013
There is no shelf life to grief. You grieve as long as you grieve. You grieve because you love.
11 years have passed since we held a baby boy that changed our lives forever. Samuel and I learned how love can transcend so many barriers. And how love continues on, once you love someone you can never forget.
Today there are tears, almost as fresh as that Wednesday so long ago that I sat on Samuel's bed and told him his buddy had died. How hard it is to help your child through his grief too.
Today I also try to have happy memories both of the past and of Richard's Present and forever. The Past-he was the happiest baby I'd ever met, he had the sweetest little smile with the whitest teeth, he loved to suck his thumb and have Samuel rub his toes (just like the picture) and most of all he loved Samuel and felt secure in his arms. But how I imagine him now-in Heaven, where he will never know hurt or abandonment, where his time is filled with love from others mostly from our loving Father.
I have a dear friend, also named Richard who lost his daughter on the 13th, in 2007. I imagine Lindsey being a loving big sister to Richard. And Wonder if at times he is a mischievous little brother to her.
I also try to imagine the reunion we will one day have with Richard.
We love you Baby Richard, Thank you for teaching us so much.