Tuesday, March 12, 2013
Today's Spark Coach lesson was about moderation. That is a concept that I agree with, in theory, but have difficulty practicing. The areas in my like that would benefit from moderation, as opposed to all-or-nothing, are:
TV (Sadly, more all, than nothing)
Probably just about everything.
I think it comes down to being a perfectionist. Now, my friends would snort milk out of their noses if they heard me implying that I'm a perfectionist, but hear me out. When I do something, I want to do it all of the way. I want it to be perfect. I don't want to clean out my closet unless I can vacuum, dust, donate unneeded items and organize everything remaining. I don't want to clean the kitchen unless all of the dishes, appliances, and nooks and crannies are going to be cleaned, inside and out. Work is the same way. I procrastinate on grading because I know that grading 5 essays will be frustrating and won't even make a dent in my pile. Ergo, to outsiders, I'm a lazy slob, but I know myself to be a frustrated perfectionist. I've just shut down and given up on a number of areas because the perfection that I long for is beyond my grasp for too many reasons to count.
Dieting is the same way. Contrary to today's lesson, some foods actually are bad for me. I.e., they make me ill. It is difficult to give up a major food group (dairy) and practice moderation every where else. If I can't have cheese, my mind rebels at also avoiding sugar.
However, I guess that I have to play the hand that I've been dealt. Thirty some-odd years of experience tells me that justifying the reasons for a situation does not solve the problem. So, okay, I'm a frustrated perfectionist, now what?
Now I need to work on being able to start over at any moment. Now I need to focus on SMART goals (specific, measurable, achievable, realistic, timely). Rather that visualizing myself 60 lbs lighter, I will visualize myself 5 lbs lighter (able to fit in my work pants better). Rather than trying to clean the entire kitchen, I will put away the food and wash the dishes. Rather than focusing on the chocolate that I ate earlier and seeing this as a lost day, I will focus on making better choices for the remains of the day.
Now to practice what a preach? Practice what I blog?