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Life is hard, but ya gotta keep going.

Tuesday, March 12, 2013

Ive still been bad at regular blogging, but I have been making (slow) progress over here. I think I'm finally under 180 again but I'm hesitant to move my tracker because I don't want to have to move it up again if I'm wrong.... This morning I weighed myself in pj's and it said good things, so perhaps tomorrow I'll make it official.

I really like that, at my new job, there is a treadmill and a stationary bike in the "community room" right next to my office. Nothing too fancy but it does make it a whole lot easier to get myself to exercise :)

Since last time I blogged I've ended my old job, started my new job, went through a mini meltdown (at home), went through a breakup, and then went through a full blown meltdown. Life is hard. In the fall of 2011 I started trying to take control of my anxiety but then life kind of happened and it got put on the back burner- graduating college, moving, no health insurance. Boo. So for a whole now it's been slowly getting out of hand. For the most part it was the demise of this relationship the first time back last fall, and now I'm going to pin the blame on it again.

The whole anxiety thing is weird. I can't really blame him for ending the relationship because quite honestly I can be awful to deal with at times. It's just an awful feeling to know that once I get everything "fixed" this time there's not going to be a reconciliation. Blargh, this is getting off track but it's in my brain.

Anyway, since my Level 5 meltdown last week I've tried to buy myself happiness, which hasn't exactly worked but I have got myself some new clothes and a pretty nice haircut. I've gotten serious about working out (before I was only mild about it) because I know that the activity will help with overall well being. I also have a doctors appointment this afternoon to see what we can do about this brain I have, make it work a little better.

My roommate and I were also discussing Mercury (the planet) and how it is apparently in retrograde right now, until March 17th and we're pretty convinced that's why everything is so mucked up lately. At first we laughed and joked about it, and then we did some searching on the Internet and were surprised what we read.... Seriously, google search "Mercury in retrograde" amd read some things. Kind of cool, right? Also, it's keeping me hopeful that things will take a positive shift next week because I have too much darn negativity lingering everywhere :)

On that note I'm going to stop rambling and telling the Internet my woes. ;)
  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

VEROISME 12/16/2013 10:30AM

    Hi! I just came across your blog and felt I could relate with much of what you were "rambling" about... actually I love people who ramble, it makes me feel less alone! I find that when I work hard on one aspect of my life, it gives me strength to get everything else in order... something I REALLY need to apply myself to right now. I think we can both do it and get things in place! Good Luck!

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LUCKY8GAL 6/12/2013 4:17PM

    Hang in there, it all gets better:) with a little time. emoticon

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KATHANN2 4/22/2013 7:00PM

    I hope you are doing well and feeling better. Life can get really hard, it's up to you to take control of it! You can do this!

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MJREIMERS 3/14/2013 7:49AM

    The planets can cause some chaos in our lives, but they always align again and things get better. I've found than when things happen that I'm not happy about, usually things get much better than I ever thought they could.

Ie. I broke up with my fiancÚ in college, dated a few people and then started hanging out with a friend that was a guy. It will be 20 years of marriage in August! At that time I thought my life really sucked and I'd never find the right "one."

Be patient with life. Take this time to continue to focus on you and what's good for YOU! It sounds like you are on the right path....keep going! emoticon

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JUNEAU2010 3/12/2013 3:21PM

    Hang tough. The pendulum will swing and things will be better!

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