Monday, March 11, 2013
Tomorrow is my older daughter's birthday. In past years we would have birthday cake on the weekend before or after and Ed and I would go to dinner on her birthday with she and her husband. Not this year.
We celebrated tonight with her sister and niece and nephew. Her husband was working. She paid for everyone's dinner and things went well until we finished dinner and cake. Then my grnadson stood up and deliberately pushed a glass of diet pepsi into his mother's lap. It was as if he had a compusion and couldn't help himself. Needless to say that ended what had been a nice evening on a sour note as his mother, my younger daughter, was furious. She yelled at him loudly enough for the entire place to hear and they left. My other daughter and I just sat there, dumbfounded, for a while.
When we got back to my house there was a photo on as e-mail from my younger daughter. It was of her ex stepson and his girlfriend. I haven't seen him since he was in middle school and this was his prom photo. he is a handsome young man and was so bright but has little chance of furthering his education now.
My heart was hurting from the incident at the restaurant and since I have received the photo it feels like it is broken all over again. The worst part? I don't have Ed to hold me and comfort me. The love of my life who could help me put things into perspective isn't here to do that and I am hurting so much tonight. I had made it through the day, even after the baker who did Michelle's cake asked how Ed was, (he didn't know) I was holding up and looking forward to having the grandkids with us tonight. Now I sit here at the computer with a broken heart.
Lord please help this family, heal my daughter and her two children and help us get through this difficult time. Thank you