Monday, March 11, 2013
I think everyone's view on how they measure their self worth is going to be different in a lot of ways but in a lot of ways it will be the same.
For one im important enough to be here, God created me, im still on earth thus why im important. But it goes on way beyond that. If someone was to ask me "Jill , how do you feel you are as a person?" I'd say im kick a$$! :) lol
No but seriously, ive always wanted to please people. I always, I mean ALWAYS followed the rules. Rules of my house, rules when I was in school, rules of the road, rules of my state and country. I don't do anything to anyone for them to say hey woah shes not a good person. Generally everyone loves me or at least tolerates me LOL.
I know im a good person , I love people for who they are- I was taught that everyone no matter size, boy, girl, disability, race, etc. Were all PEOPLE. We all have feelings etc, and I value everyone that was planted on this earth. And just because someone makes a mistake doesn't mean they are a bad person.
But when do I Value......me? When do I respect me? when do I care enough to say im WORTH being healthy. I know im a good person, but I contradict the things I say and do. I eat crap, im trying to change but seriously im not big because I eat healthy and exercise. I do one or the other really well and mess up again. Ive never drank alcohol, smoked cigerettes, done drugs, my weapon of choice is food? So when do I put my foot down, and say your worth being healthy, do this for u? I want to be the best at everything I can be, a mother, daughter, wife, friend, etc. I wanna be there and continue to teach and reach out to others, to continue on my journey, but I can FEEL happier about doing all of it because I will be healthy.