Monday, March 11, 2013
So, I don't know about you, but I've been stubborn all my life, even while in my Mother's womb (and I am 38 now). When she would get ultrasounds done, I would be too active just swimming around. How was I to know it was a God given quality that I could utilize just like any other. My stubbornness has always gotten me into some kind of trouble, and for someone who tries to avoid conflict as much as I can, didn't always work out for me. If I had an idea that I thought was amazing, I would defend it to the point of embarrassment. Not everyone shared my most magical ideas (lol) or concepts and after many failed attempts at getting others to listen, I became defeated and gave up, thinking that my ideas had no value or merit and those thoughts extended to how I felt about myself.
So where does one go after feeling defeated and rejected for years? Back to the drawing board, of course. When God gives you a certain character trait, you're best to utilize it! Now, being stubborn isn't meant to try to get your own way all the time, that would be manipulating and no one wants to be on either end of that. No, I'm talking about staying on track. Set a goal and work at achieving it. Don't let those lies dictate your abilities or strengths. Everyone has them, the thoughts that say "I'm not good enough," "it's too hard so why try," "I have no support or any motivation," or the one that used to get me to tears especially on a bad day, "who would like you the way you are right now? You have nothing to offer so just give in to the binging". Most times that would work but then the circle of depression and self loathing would just keep going.
If you're as stubborn as I am, you need to change your thinking from negative into positive. If you believe in God, you need to ask Him for help on this by asking Him to renew and transform your mind. If you don't believe in God and you're reading this, well that's okay too. This might even be an opportunity for you to ask for Gods help for the first time. God is good and He answers prayer! Test Him out and see for yourself. Once you begin your journey of positive thinking, nothing can stand in your way! If you mess up, instead of bearing yourself up, just pick yourself up. A good example of this was the other day, I had barely any sleep. I woke up irritable and could care less about tracking my food or even what I ate. Honestly I just wanted to revert back to watching tv and eating I chips all day. Tat was actually what I did for half my day until I snapped out of it and gave my head a good shake. We all have bad days, but if you think about it, the good far out weigh the bad