Monday, March 11, 2013
Okay. So, I am not where I want to be. I am not seeing the numbers on the scale drop as much as I want. As a matter of fact, I went up two pounds during my time of the month and they haven't dropped back off yet. Meanwhile, I have had some seriously stressful things going on in my life and I injured my hip while doing some crazy exercise move (live and learn, right?). My point is... I feel disheartened due to my failures, but I REFUSE to give up. This year I will reach my goal! I don't care if it takes me until Christmas Eve at midnight to do it, I WILL DO IT!!! I have to do it. It's my Christmas present to Jesus this year. I promised him that I would get this temple of his into tip-top shape. How can I tell HIM that something is too hard after he went all the way to the cross for me. He would not give up until he bought my pardon, so how can I do anything less? I CAN'T!!! I must give this 100% of my effort and then some. I can't become lazy and sloppy with what I eat and if I feel like exercising. It is HIS present, but really, it's for me as well. It's for my honey and my kids, too. They need me to be my healthiest and best. It's for the people in my church and community who look to me as a leader. I cannot just throw the towel in. I have too much at stake.
Father, I CAN do all things through Christ that strengtheneth me. You began a good work in me. Please, Father, don't let me fail. Be faithful to complete it in me. I am but dust. You are the strength of my life and my hope. You are my strong tower. I run to you and am helped. I will boast in you. Great are you, Lord, and worthy of honor. Great are you, Lord, and worthy of praise. Great are you, Lord. I lift up my voice. Hear my cry, O God. Attend unto my prayer, from the ends of the earth will I cry unto thee. When my heart is overwhelmed, lead me to the ROCK that is higher than I. For thou hast been a shelter for me, and a strong tower from the enemy. Change me from the inside out. Help me to love that which will help me and is good for me and help me to be detest the things that will harm and hinder me. I trust you, Father. You are strong in my weakness. You are my source of strength. You are my all. I will praise you for I am fearfully and wonderfully made and that my soul knoweth right well. Continue to work on me. Mold me into what you would have me to be. I won't give up, Father. I will trust you and fight on. Only take me by the hand... lead me my Blessed Lord. In Jesus name, AMEN.