Monday, March 11, 2013
I got into work early today and was shocked at the number of emails waiting for me. As I started going through the emails, someone made mention of my blog being featured in the email that morning. What?
Of course my work email system consistently deletes my Best of Spark emails and everything else (no matter how many times I enter the address as a safe sender) and I didn't even get the email. But I went onto the website and opened up my blog and was shocked by the number of comments. Now I have well over 150 comments and am thrilled and humbled by it. One of the best things from SP for me has been the blog. It is something that I try to do every day (the weekends sometimes get missed) and it allows me to share my feelings and not be judged. That's my favorite part!
So now I've got a huge smile on my face because of each and every one of you! Thank you! I guess this means I shouldn't skip the gym tonight! Just kidding, I wouldn't skip it.
Then I am walking across campus this afternoon and see a woman carrying a vase of flowers with her. I made the comment that I like flowrs, hoping she'd just give them to me so I could make my office look pretty, and it turns out the flowers were for me! My parents sent them to me for achieving my first major goal! Isn't that the best? I love getting flowers. It was a great reward and my colleagues were all a little jealous.
The biggest difference between this attempt to lose weight and all the others has been that I have really shared this journey with everyone. I have opened up to all of you, let my colleagues know that 10% of my start weight is 30 pounds. I don't care that they can figure out how much I weighed when I started, because I don't weigh that anymore, and I don't plan to be at 270 that long either. I've been more open with my parents and my other family members as well. It feels good to make a healthy decision and have people to share it with. That being said, I haven't shared this with absolutely everyone. I stopped using Facebook months ago because of the "bullying-like" behavior. I was constantly comparing myself to everyone else, letting what other people said affect me negatively. It just wasn't a healthy place for me to be. I also have friends who have not been the most supportive, and I've decided that means they do not get to share this with me. No matter what happens in the future, I'm okay with where I am today. And I'm really okay with where I am headed tomorrow.
I have a couple tests to grade tonight and then some time at the gym. Is anyone else really messed up today from the time change? Everyone at work has been grumpy and tired today. And from this point forward when I am feeling grumpy or discouraged, I'm just going to look back at yesterday's blog and all of your warm, encouraging and supportive messages!
Thank you everyone for making my day!