Monday, March 11, 2013
Anyone that has ever went thru a pain loss of a loved, goes thru depressed and can't seem to get over it. I did when I lost my son in January of 2011. It has took me a year and a half to get over "hating" the people responsible for my loss. No one knows the pain of losing a child, unless you have experienced it yourself. You think you do, but you have no idea. I didn't want to get up and go to work, I did't want to walk thru the door of the place where I had viewed my son laying on the table in the ED. But I soon realized I "HAD" to get on with my life and get back to living. Nothing I can or could do, will bring Matt back, so I knew I had to turn my life around and do what would be best for me. That was making peace with my own mind. I can honestlly say I can now forgive the persons responsible for my loss. I've come a long way. Don't get me wrong, I still miss my son so very much, and he will always be in my heart and on my mind. But now I know I can live each day with a brighter future because I learned to deal with my loss. Each day I wake up, I promise myself that today I will be a cheerful person with a smile on my face. Let me assure you it is hiding a pain that will never go away, but it can be liveable. It's up to the individual how they decide to live after a terrible loss in their life. Me.... I decided I do not want to be bitter and cold. I want to live my life as best I can, with a smile on my face and a love in my heart, Try it folks..you might find you like it also!