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Now I know I have a heart...

Sunday, March 10, 2013

After reading human interest stories by Lance Armstrong and Deanna Farve, all I can do is picture my life without mother in it and it breaks my heart to see her suffering through this.

She has been so upbeat about it all though, so I am trying to stay that way as well although it is hard for me to do so.

I mean I just got to thinking, thirty five days ago...my life forever changed, as we found out mom had gotten cancer.

I guess I am sounding a lot like a Debbie downer tonight, but, all I see lately when I look at mom (especially when she is asleep) is when I will not be able to see her again.

And it kills me inside to think like that. I mean I lost both my father and stepfather to cancer and now to have the woman I love more than life itself going through it.

I am trying to put on a brave face and stay positive for her, but, I think the one thing that got to me today was seeing her in a wig cap this morning before she got herself fixed up.

Also does anyone know if the bookstores like Barnes and noble sells books on only bone cancer (osteo sarcoma) as I am finding everything under the sun on cancer...but, nothing dealing with that kind of cancer.
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ALIHIKES 3/11/2013 2:17PM

    It is very hard to go through a serious illness of a loved one. My mom has congestive heart failure and is in hospice; she is at a different stage of her life (she is over 90 years old) but I still love her and want her to be comfortable and enjoy life.

Re books on bone cancer -- I checked on Amazon and the only book I found that was about bone cancer/osteo sarcoma (only) was VERY expensive, over $100; I think it is a medical textbook and would likely be WAY over my head. Personally I would look for information on the internet, including Spark medical conditions center. But if you want to try and find the book, it is called "Bone Cancer: Progression and Therapeutic Approaches"; Dominque Heymann is the editor; maybe your library will get you a copy through inter-library loan.

For an inspiring story of a boy who survived childhood bone cancer -- read "Just Don't Fall" by Josh Sundquist. I read about Sundquist here on Spark, and I really liked the book.

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MASTERCARE 3/11/2013 5:06AM

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REDMOUNTAIN 3/10/2013 10:20PM

    I am so sorry you are going through this. I lost my mom to metastatic breast cancer 2 years ago. I miss her every day.

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