Sunday, March 10, 2013
I am feeling like a bloated, out of control alien tonight! I am so disappointed in myself. For the last several months I have managed to control myself and not give in to my desire to binge eat. I have maintained control and relied on my willpower to keep my diet in check. But tonight, for whatever reason, I failed and binged on several junk food items over the course of 3.5 hours. (chocolate cake, M&Ms, beef from dinner & A large bowl of fruit!!)
I am writing this because, like any addict, I have to be accountable for faltering in my addiction. Yes, food is my addiction. By making myself accountable, I will be less likely to continue faltering.
So, yes i had a bad binge. But what I am NOT going to do is give up and quit working towards my goals. I am going to say that this was a bad afternoon, but that doesn't mean it has to be a bad week. You see as I have dieted before, I allowed a bad moment to domino into momentS, then hours, then weeks etc. Not this time. I am not going to eat anything else tonight and in the morning I am going to return to my normal, healthy eating. I will stay in my calorie count and I will workout as usual. This moment will not break me.
OK, now that I sound like a crazy lady, I am going to take my butt to bed and hope that the bloat from this binge goes away soon!! Good Night!!