A New Battle For Me
Sunday, March 10, 2013
Well so this is a type of blog I never thought I would be writing. For me maintaining weight is much harder than losing weight. I haven't quite figured out that exact balance yet of maintenance. Once I reach my goal weight I think "woo hoo" party time! This also usually coincides with a particularly stressful change in clerkship demands ironically, so that I start slipping on my healthy habits and a month later what do you know I have gained some weight back. The first time this happened I had no problem getting back into old healthy ways, but something about this second time seems harder. Maybe it is because I only have 10 pounds to lose so I feel closer to my goal and not as motivated. Whatever it is I didn't put my full effort into this last week (1st week of my kickstart). It was an exam week, so I was studying all up until Friday, but that is no excuse. I actually did pretty well on eating (until last night which I will talk about in a second). The part that got me was the exercise. I got in only two out of the four sessions I had planned.
Honestly I could have lived with all that, but here is the real kicker. Saturday night is always date night for my boyfriend and I. Last night we were craving Mexican food so we went to a good place we know. In the past I have never had a problem with restricting my calories when I would go out. It was always under control and I had some huge willpower to say "no" to another delicious bite. This was not the case last night. Maybe it was because I got a margarita first and there was a 30 min wait for a table, so by the time we got our food I gave into temptation. But even that isn't an excuse because old me would have skipped the sugary margarita to begin with.
Today I was feeling down about my misbehavior last night. I think every day gives you two options: sit on the couch and feel sorry for yourself OR start fresh and take advantage of the day. Unfortunately I choose the first one and am just now realizing how I wasted this day on being sad about one moment of weakness. At least I have kept my food under control and just indulged in three movie and not three buckets of popcorn or something. But still, I was not productive. I could have at least tried to work-off some of that misbehavior from yesterday. There is a really pretty park up the road not too far that would be good for running and today was probably one of the last cooler days in AZ before Summer gets going which is too bad. The sun is setting on today, but thankfully it will rise again tomorrow and be yet another chance to turn this around. I am writing this blog so that in the future, should I face this battle again, I can read on this moment and remember that I should take the high road. I should enjoy the fact that I got to indulge for a night (in the long run that one meal will not affect my eventual weight loss) and I should get right back on the plan!
AZ Sunsets - The most beautiful in the whole world I am convinced
Sunrise - A new start each day
Hoping for a better week this week!