Sunday, March 10, 2013
Yep, March 10, 2010, I started here on sparkpeople. I remember secretly looking online for free weight loss programs and not mentioning it to anyone. I found spark and signed up, figuring I would check it out. Eventually.
That was a Wednesday night. BY the next morning, even though I was telling myself I would start on Monday, I began. It was so easy, it was fun and I loved figuring out how to track my food etc.
I decided I would spend some time getting my nutrition in order, THEN I would start excercising. Since I have bad knees and bulged discs in my back, I was doing absolutly NOTHING physical beyond day to day living.
I discovered how fun it was to hit my ranges and try to figure out food that would fit within the range and not put me over in carbs or under in protein.
I decided I would weigh in on Thursdays, once a week.
I dont remember how much I lost the first week but I know it was at least a couple of pounds. It shocked me how much I was eating before!! I truly had no idea but I must have been between 4000-6000 calories a day, easily.
One of the main things I set out to do was walk with my husband and my dog. He went most nights with the dog, without me. Or if I went, I drove along behind them. I could not walk more than a block without severe pain.
After a few months, I started walking too. I asked him if I could go and he was very supportive. I told him I would have to go slow and I could not go as far as he was used to. So we began. He encouraged me and I started to enjoy walking and talking in the evenings. IT didnt feel like excercise, just a nice time to visit and unwind from the day.
I would use the tracker to see how far I went. I remember we went to a new place one day and I said, "I wonder if we just walked a mile? I think I may have walked a mile!". I came home and tracked it and sure enough, I had waddled my way to a mile!! It was thrilling!
To this day, most evenings, we walk our dog about 2-3 miles a night. It is good for her and good for us. I still look at it as a relaxing time. Yes, there are times I have no desire to go. I will be tired or grouchy or in pain or I plain just dont want to. ANd my husband will say to the dog, "Tell Grandma, lets go!" and she runs up to me crying. So what choice do I have? I can let myself down but not the grand-dog, so we go.
I lost 50 pounds in less than a year. The next year I lost 20. Last year, I didnt lose any weight and in fact, have gained back about 20.
But as I set out today on my 4th year of being here at SP, I have learned so much.
1. I will never quit. I may lose or gain or stay the same, but I will never go back to where I was. I will never stop trying to reach that goal of losing 111 pounds which I set out to do.
2. Support makes all the difference. I have friends who are still here from day one and some I made further into my journey but all have a peice of my heart and have lifted me up, encouraged me, made me laugh and cry and have become a huge part of my life.
3. I realized that I can maintain my weight loss. When I am finally at goal, I know I can keep it up.
4. I have all the tools I need to succeed, I just need to get out of my own way.
5. You know when people say that nothing tastes as good as skinny feels? They are lying. Cookies always taste better than anything.
6. Determination will take you far but your sense of humor will make it worth getting there. Dont be so serious. Life is fun. Eating well is not a punishment. Although I do think squats are punishment.
7. When you have questions, ask. When you are in need, reach out. Dont hide when you are doing badly, ask for help. Stay here! Someone will be there for you. Guaranteed.
8. I dont have all the answers. Sometimes I feel dumb, alone, fat, frumpy and like I will never succeed. But I get over it. I help someone else. I go to bed and wake up to a new start and then I do it again and again till I get it right.
Thank you to all who have been here with me and to anyone new who may be reading this, you CAN do this. You CAN. Do you want to? If you do, you will.
Thats pretty much it.