I've been at this since last August, with serious intent since January. Not a pound has been lost. I've bounced around from 107.4 - 109 kilos. I've done Primal with appetite-led eating. I've done Sparkpeople with strict calorie counting. I've done Sparkpeople with Fitbit.

Sparkpeople yells constantly that I'm not eating enough calories for my activity level. Fitbit has only congratulated me TWICE on actually meeting my calorie consumption goals. Most days I've got a thousand calorie defecit.

No weight was lost.

Well, three days ago I borrowed my daughters' current Weight Watchers' materials and decided to give it a true try of one week. I don't know how the calories play out, but I have 39 daily points to use, plus 5 points, plus I'm accruing activity points at the rate of 7 a day and don't eat those. So I'm guessing it's roughly 1400 calories. Sparkpeople's low range for me is 1490.

Yesterday (day 3) my husband suggested going out to Morton National Park and doing a grueling walk down to Fairy Bower Falls. A mile straight down on a rough track, then that same mile straight back UP. Husband is good about letting me go at my own pace so by about 2/3'ds of the way up I was climbing five steps, resting, climbing five more....sweating like crazy. I shouldn't have an impurity left in my body after all that sweating.

So....I weigh myself this morning. Scale says 105-something. I'll take it, but I'm confuzzled.

Did I just sweat off water weight? Is it true weight loss? Why the heck is it happening now that I'm waaayyyy undereating according to both Sparkpeople and Fitbit? (When I was eating at the top of my Sparkpeople range and the Fitbit range, I wasn't losing but I wasn't gaining either.)

This is where it messes with my mind. I know we're not all one-size but it would be a heck of a lot easier and less confronting if it worked the same for us all. Am I going to get on the scale in a couple of days and see 107.4 again? ACK!!!!!

My darling son has an apprenticeship at Bakers Delight now, and Saturday evening he brought home a ton of free goodies. Including half a dozen delicious plump scones. I threw the scones in the freezer and sent those off with the husband today to feed his ever-hungry co-workers. Those scones sang a siren song even through the freezer door, I tell ya.