Sunday, March 10, 2013
Well it took me a while to get into the flow of my journey re-start in January but I perservered and did lose a few pounds (4-5lbs in total) but then mid February hit and with Valentine's, my birthday and chocolate gifts from hubby for his time working away, it all sabotaged my good work. I know I could have put the treats away, I know I didn't need to eat it all, I know I could have said thank you, no treats for me. However, as a recovering treat-aholic it went straight to my stomach, my brain didn't stand a chance, I encouraged the treat buying and even bought myself more when no-one was there to see. Led to my calorie intake going through the roof, just as you would expect & my weight crept back up, who am I kidding it shot up!
After feeling very sorry for myself for not being able to eat as I like, then the anger for undoing all the hard work, for feeling very uncomfortable in my clothes, I'm back to being selfish! It's the only way for this program to work, I have to put myself first, I have to ask for no treats for Mother's Day, I have to let my family know I'm struggling to get this program working again for me. I have to not feel bad for refusing to have treats today, I have to do it for me, my health and my headspace (and my stretched clothing seams).
Right now I feel what I imagine a smoker to feel like when they give up cigarettes. I'm going cold turkey - no treats - well it's a case of no cake/biscuits/chocolate but crisps are still in there for now, certainly not every day, but if I find I can't control myself around them they will need to go too. I'm finding it really tough but know I've been here before & I can conquer this, I will come through the other side!
- I want to lose a minimum 17lbs by the end of June,
- My first weigh in will be the end of March
- I will take one day at a time & aim to be within my calorie allowance
- I will eat min 5 portions of fruit & veg daily
- I will drink my 8 cups of water daily (min)
- No cake/biscuits/chocolate until at least the end of March
- 1500 mins of exercise/month.
I currently weigh 192.4lbs and I need to get to that elusive 175lbs, it's my mental block weight that once and for all I want to get by!
I can do this, I just have to make myself believe it now! 175lbs here I come!