Sunday, March 10, 2013
"it is for freedom that Christ has set us free. Stand firm, then and do not let yourselves be burdened again by a yoke of slavery." -Galatians 5:1
"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon me and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden light." -Jesus in the book of Matthew.
"Am I now trying to win the approval of men, or of God? Or am I trying to please men? If I were still trying to please men, I would not be a servant of Christ." -Galatians 1:10
I am a people pleaser. Especially when it comes to worrying what other people think about my body. I get so consumed by trying to eat and exercise for the purpose of bettering the look of my body that I no longer strive to serve God.
I need to focus on servitude.
I need to live by the Spirit; work on allowing the Spirit's fruit to be expressed in my life. These fruits are love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, FAITHFULNESS and SELF-CONTROL.
Faithful to God being my god and not letting my stomach be my god. Including allowing the Spirit be expressed in my self-control in my eating habits. With the Spirit in me I do have the capacity to have self-control.
I have an obsession about my weight. I'm having thoughts pertaining to what God may feel about weight. (one time I read a scripture, Isaiah 53:2 that left me with the impression that physical beauty is not something God would care about, though I do know our health matters. This verse states "He grew up before him like a tender shoot, and like a root out of dry ground, He had no beauty or majesty to attract us to him, nothing in his appearance that we should desire him." If you read it in context you can see it is a prophesy about Jesus.)
Mark 11:23 records Jesus saying,"Have faith in God. I tell you the truth, if anyone says to this mountain, 'Go throw yourself into the sea,' and does not doubt in his heart but believes that what he says will happen, it will be done for him." God is happy to help us with our attitudes of the heart that trip us up and take our eyes off of him. The thing I am now planning to cast into the sea is my frame of mind that is my obsession with my body.
What would it mean to be done with my obsession?
No more constant weigh-ins.
No more focus on calories, but on portion size and healthy eating, no more binges.
Enjoy what I eat but eat for hunger not cravings.
No more talking about, and boring others in my family about calories and workouts.
I'd still exercise regularly, without being obsessed with counting every calorie I'm burning.
I'd still take care of my body.
I'd have more mental time for giving to others and be less self focused.
I wouldn't have body image problems, I'd set aside self-consciousness.
I know this is the right thing to do. My faith dictates it.
But it is hard.
What makes it hard? my selfishness gets in the way of my faith.
It is right, it is good, it is godly. I have the Spirit's power and the Spirit is nudging me to consider this. The Spirit is reassuring me. It's a big change after 30 years of counting calories and obsession.
"Finally, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is admirable-if anything is excellent or praiseworthy-think about such things." -Philippians 3:8
These things are what I want to focus on and God by serving people. I will not be devoted to SparkPeople over devotion to my God. I get too wrapped up in focusing on what people think and say to me; not negative comments by other SparkPeople, because I never have had those, but all the yearning for praise that I do.