Wow i miss a lot and I apologized for not putting in the commitment. I started out doing good and then things went down hill. I need to be here and find myself again. Things are still not back to normal. I am trying to eat healthy and low carb and I am getting back into exercising slowly. I am dealing with a lot as hubby just can't get it together and his blood sugar goes from high to low.Between the moodiness and bipolar it been hard. Today he wake up not being able to see in one eye.They have him n Xanax and he just been so out of it this past week.He can barely walk or stand or dress himself. I am trying to do everything. So driving is rough. I don't drive which doesn't help any. Please I am dealing with my oldest son Brandon and the courts in NY, Cause we had him removed at age 14 for touching his siblings. They want to bring him back into the house and i wont let them. So I am fighting with them over the phone. i have to look out for these kids safety. Plus me and hubby need to work on our marriage cause he broke the trust. It been one thing on top of another. I am trying to stay focus and trying to lose this weight. I have gained and am not happy about it. I will try and commitment.