I'm still around. You know how you're driving and all of a sudden you come across a few potholes and you find yourself either swerving around them meticulously in an effort to avoid hurting the car, or you drive right over them and semi hate yourself for it? Well I'm apparently in swerve mode. About a week and a half ago, I had a full ultrasound of the abdomen to determine what issues I'm having that's causing my liver functions to go haywire. As it turns out, I do have fatty liver (which I didn't want but I expected it after the initial blood tests) and I also have gallstones. THAT was something I wasn't exactly prepared to hear. I know it's not a huge thing unless there's an infection, and I know the surgery is generally an outpatient deal, but even so. In any case, call it a bad case of hypochondria (my bf calls it as such) or just extremely weird coincidence (my theory), but a few days after finding out those results, I woke up with a severe pain in my upper right side, near my ribcage. The pain had me so paranoid that I scheduled a last minute doctor's appointment to check it out and make sure everything's okay. Long story short, it very well could be a stone issue, but more than likely it was intestinal.
For some inexplicable reason, last sunday I had a hugely intense craving for macaroni and cheese. I had a tiny microwavable easy mac for lunch, only I wanted more of the stuff, so I sent the boyfriend to the store (I was getting over a slight head cold so me going outside wasn't wise) and he got a box of the stuff. I wound up having 2 bowls worth, PLUS bread. Super carb binge. I wasn't depriving myself of carbs, I'm not following a low carb diet or anything, but I hadn't had them in a while. The next morning was when I felt that pain so I can only guess it was an intestinal thing, because the rest of the week, I ate clean and while the pain remained to some degree it did become more bearable. By thursday the pain had pretty much disappeared completely. Because of that pain though, I chose to take the safe route and avoid the gym just to be on the safe side and avoid injury, and I've chosen to forego my weigh in this week.
This was a bad week for me, with painful potholes in my day to day life, but I'm staying strong which is something new for me. I'm eager to get back in the gym, as it's become a habit for me now. I skipped the weigh in only because I wasn't doing my normal exercise and I didn't want it to reflect on my scale; if my weight went up in any way I'd rather not know because I'm afraid I'd throw in the towel, and I could very easily have just maintained for the week but I didn't want to risk seeing something I didn't want to see. Normally I only work out mon-sat due to my gym being closed on sundays, but tomorrow I just might get outside and try my hand at running again. Seeing changes in my body overall is keeping me motivated, and knowing that losing weight and lowering my body fat percentage overall will help me avoid further issues with my liver is more than enough to keep me going.
In other news, school is going well. Those potholes included me missing a few classes, which put me a little behind on projects, but I'm back in the swing of things and am working hard to keep my progress going there. Thus far all my assignments have received A's, and as long as I can keep everything above a B in that regard, I'll be set.
I've got this. It's a long and slow process, but I'm trusting myself and my body more and more each day. This time, I just might succeed in my weight loss journey. Time will tell, and I'll keep y'all updated often. Thanks to those of you who make the effort to read my entries and cheer me on