Saturday, March 09, 2013
So I have been busting my tale to make healthy choices. Staying in calorie range, working out almost everyday, giving up diet coke for the last two weeks. The scale says I lost 4 pounds, but I tried my bridesmaid dress on today and it still doesn't fit well. When I tried it on a month ago it zipped but it was very uncomfortable. I was hoping that it would either be the same or maybe a little better, but no luck. I am 34 days from my sisters wedding and have to fit comfortably in the dress by then. I don't know right now what my plan is, but I do know that I am going to have to do more than just make healthy choices. I am going to have to diet. I don't have the time for the healthy choices to make enough of a difference. I know it is my own fault, but it is just frustrating to try really hard and it not be enough. I am so tired of being the fat one in the family. I am going to come up with a diet plan soon. Cut carbs is what I am thinking. I have done it before and I know it works, I jut hate to do it. It makes me miserable. Grouchy, moody, mad. Headaches happen more often. I don't know. I've got to do something though. I am running out of time. I guess worst case, I can work at a diet to lose it (unhealthily), probably gain it all back after the wedding when I resume eating carbs, and then get back to losing a pound a week though healthy choices. I know that is negative thinking, honestly I am in a bit of a negative mindset at the moment. Sorry to be a downer. Just getting it out.
On a different note, I did workout today. I did weights and jump rope and rotated through some of my old p31 workout material. I did 30 minutes and burned 305 calories according to my heart rate monitor. Not bad...except these workouts don't seem to be making a difference. At least my main reason to do them is stress relief, otherwise it would be hard to maintain motivation to keep at it.