Today was both good and bad. The good part was that I got my wedding dress paid for and my bridesmaids dresses picked out! I was so excited about that! But other than that, the day just kinda stunk! I kept getting picked on by my own mother, I ate WAY too much at Five Guys restaurant and felt like a bloated cow, and to make matters worse, we went clothes shopping after that. Now, I like clothes shopping, but not when I'm with my sister. She's about half an inch taller than me, wears a size 3/4 and is just absolutely GORGEOUS! I mean, compared to her I look like a cow. Every time I go shopping with her, my self-esteem just goes straight down the toilet. I mean, she can't help that she's beautiful... she just happened to get the "better" genes in the family and I didn't. And my sister's totally cool, always telling me how pretty I am when she can tell I definitely don't feel that way. It just hurts. I try not to compare myself but how can I not? She's beautiful, funny, and has got everything in the world working in her favor. I'm sitting here, overweight, depressed, and having to fight my way through life because no one will just give me a break. Needless to say, I walked away from the store with nothing while she walked away with two new dresses that she'll probably never wear, and some other stuff. It just hurts after a while. I know I'm going to get back to looking like that one day, but right now, it just plain hurts...



"Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.” ~Matthew 11:28-30 (ESV)