I gave up.
Saturday, March 09, 2013
Plain and simple, I gave up.
In January, our groups of 8 went down to Cuba. We had a fantastic time, however, upon our return, I was horrified to see some of the pictures. Don't get me wrong - I know exactly what I look like at 235 lbs, but there were one or two shots taken at the pool bar (read: in a bathing suits) where I simply looked pregnant... Like 9 months pregnant. With a never-ending cup of rum punch in my hand. Horrified.
These were posted and tagged on Facebook.
Did I mention horrified?
When we got back, Drew and I had a week to finish packing and we moved. This meant at least 10 days of eating at least 1 meal out, or take-out. This didn't help. The day we were moving out, as I went to pack yup the scale I decided to step on to see how things looked.
I gained 10 lbs! 10!
This meant that I was 3lbs less them Drew. This couldn't happen.
So this leaves me here's I guess.
After what, 3 years?, of poking around on here, losing 30 lbs, gaining it all back and then some, I have come to the acceptance that this is not something I can do on my own. Not yet anyway. So two weeks ago I joined Weight Watchers. I had made they decision before we left on vacation that this was the next step that I would try, and yet it still took me a month to go in. I've just had two friends who've lost a significant amount of weight, 60 and 30 lbs, in the last 6 months.
I'm doing things a bit differently this time too. For starters, I have decided to keep this little tidbit of information private in my offline life, with the exception of Drew and my parents. The good thing is that my mom decided to join with me a week later, so I have a buddy, someone to encourage me, etc. So far that's helping, even if we do spend most of our conversations saying "oh, look how little/high the point value is for that!"
And secondly, I haven't reactivated my gym membership yet. That time will come, but I need to get my food choices in check. Instead, I'm focusing on walking my dog twice a day (something that isn't always done); My bestie (the 60lbs weight loss champ mentioned earlier) and I had purchased groupons back in November for Bikram Yoga, so we've activated those and are out doing 2x 90 minute classes a week (side note: holy mother is it ever hot!). And the girls from our group (4 of us) are doing an Aqua Zumba class once a week on Mondays. So the activity level has kicked up a notch, but I'm not going balls out like I normally do.
So far things are positive. I've had a 5.4 lbs loss over two weeks, and I'm down about 4.5 inches, which is good enough for me at this point.
So we'll see how this goes. Maybe actually paying for it is the added incentive I'all need.