Wednesday night and Thursday were not good food days.
I was really tired Wednesday...not enough sleep and too much coffee made me irritable and moody.
Frustrations of the day and anxiety over things to come, made me an easy target for wanting binge foods.
Then I went to the gym where it all fell apart.
I had e-mailed my trainer that my physiotherapist did not want me to do weights with my left shoulder because of an injury.
But when I got there,she didn't really know what to do with the whole thing.
Then she mentioned that I hadn't gotten measured at the half way point of my sessions,so we proceeded to do that.
Lost 4 pounds, arms: lost 1 inch, legs : lost one inch, calfs: gained one inch, chest: stayed the same, waist: lost 1 inch.
I don't know if it was my mood, or if she though I would not be satisfied with those results but she kept saying...."well at least it went down at some places".
I should have been happy with that, but I did not really know what to feel.
Not being in a good place food wise and body image wise, I should not have done it.
And for the workout, we did lots of legs......a lot of legs. That got me frustrated and I finally just said...."that's it.I'm done!"
Finished and left before my hour was up.
I was so tired.
I was supposed to go to zumba after and then to Bible study,but I was just too tired.
But instead of going home to relax, I stopped at the store,bought binge foods and went home to eat and isolate.
Binge: 2 healthy muffins, 1/2 bar of dark chocolate, diet pepsi, 1 container of greek yogurt,1/2 container of regular yogurt and some chips.
Then I stopped and made my nails.
Then I went to bed at 7h45.
Thursday, I was in binge mode and wanted to eat every thing in site,but I controlled it a little bit.
At night, I made myself go to zumba. I did not want to go to zumba. I wanted to go home to eat and isolate.
Once there, my work-out was pitiful at best.
I love zumba and when I go, I have fun and i'm hyper.
This morning, I have a special zumba that is 1.5 hours long and I need energy to really enjoy it.
So yesterday, that was my motivation for not binging.
So I had breakfast and did not eat before lunch. And I had a good healthy lunch!
Not the crap I had on Thursday.
And I did the same the rest of the day.
I was invited to go to a buffet restaurant but it was at the same time as I was meeting my trainer at the gym. Tough decision to make!!!!
But I knew if I went to the buffet,that I would not be able to stop eating and that this morning i'd be all blah!
So I went to the gym, had a good talk with my trainer, and had a great session.
So this morning, I'm leaving in one hour to go to zumba and I feel
Thank goodness for zumba that gives me the incentive to stop binging,because before,when I had nothing, I binged for days,weeks,months and put back on a lot of pounds and felt like such a failure!
I'm proud of myself now and when i'm in a binge, I know it's temporary and that I have the power to stop it! Maybe not right away,(cause sometimes I don't want to!), but if I want to zumba, the effort is worth it!