Saturday, March 09, 2013
How did that happen. I was just reading about the three P's and realized that for today I broke the cycle: Get upset - go and binge.
I had a very upsetting phone call this morning. After I put the phone down I was cross with the person on the other side for being unreasonable, upset about myself for not handling the conversation better and for making some mistakes in the past which didn't help in this situation.
I started crying but I didn't think of going to the kitchen. My first thought was actually to read to keep me distracted but I felt too worked out to do that so I sat down in a meditative way, shut my eyes and let my thoughts go their way: why I was upset, etc. However, what calmed me down was accepting my own mistakes in the conversation and past. Accepting that that person wasn't worth wasting my time. Just accepting.
I calmed down and decided that a little yoga, which I had planned this morning in the first place, would be a good thing to distract me and get me back to zero.
I sent my husband a message about the conversation and he sent one word back: "understand"
What else do you want.