I haven't posted anything since August of last year. Back then, I felt like my world was falling apart, but now, I have found renewed strength and a more joyous heart. I was diagnosed with breast cancer in August 2012. Since that time, I've had a mastectomy. Both the procedure and my recovery went very well. I later had to have more lymph nodes removed. That was a little harder to recover from, but wasn't too bad, in the grand scheme of things. 5 of the nodes were positive for cancer cells, so my oncologist recommended chemotherapy and radiation therapy.
I had read many stories of people who had terrible chemo experiences, even spoke personally to some who'd been through it, and it made it a very daunting task to undertake. I was surprised, however, of how much I looked forward to my first treatment. I guess I felt that I was diving into the fight with both fists up. I was pleasantly surprised at how well I tolerated the treatments. My first chemo regimen was 4 cycles spaced 3 weeks apart. I had no nausea or vomiting, and what symptoms I had were mild. Next, I started a different chemo drug which consists of 12 weekly treatments. I just had my 4th treatment today. I am still tolerating treatments well, with only mild complaints and no nausea or vomiting. My appetite is good, perhaps a little too good. I've gained a little weight- maybe about 7 pounds. The steroids that are given with the infusions may increase my appetite.
I do struggle with a little fatigue, but I was tired before this journey started, so it's not a dramatic difference. My main complaint lately is dry mouth brought on by the chemo. It wasn't as bad the last time. I really feel like I am flying through all of this. My spirits are high most of the time. I'm in the middle of my total treatment regimen. My PET and CAT scans I had a few months ago showed good news of no active areas (no apparent cancer cells), so I am encouraged by that. I am heartened by all the people who keep me in their thoughts and prayers.
Though my weight loss efforts have stalled while I've been undergoing treatment, I am reevaluating my diet to make some healthier changes. For the last several months diet has fallen by the wayside as I've learned to deal with this whole situation. I've been immersed, you might say, in the whole process of chemotherapy treatments, doctor visits, dealing with symptoms of treatments that, while mild, still need dealing with, trying to catch up on my household chores which always seem just a little bit beyond me, taking care of my kids and husband, etc. We also lost my mother-in-law last November, and that has left a hole not easily filled. How I wish I could call her up. She was a 10 year breast cancer survivor who succumbed to complications of diabetes. As she was bedfast in the hospital while I was in another hospital about to have my mastectomy, her greatest wish was to be there with ME. That's just how she was. We all miss her terribly.
I hope that I can be a breast cancer survivor, also. I want to be a THRIVER! That, to me, includes getting my weight under control. It can make a difference in my life in so many ways. I want my best years to still be ahead of me!!