1. When the feelings of anxiety start, if I frame them as a message, I can make them go away.
This is an amazing result for me. I’ve had two visits to get medical tests done this week. Anything to do with doctors and medical procedures has been an anxiety producing situation for me. So this week, when getting the tests done, and I felt the beginnings of anxiety – I started to listen. My body was telling me that it was afraid and connecting to bad medical experiences in our past. I was able to tell myself that this was going to be fine and I used my yoga breathing and not only did it blow away the symptoms of anxiety, I felt like a normal human being.
2. The ability to do so much more than I was expecting.
In January, I was only able to do chair exercises. I couldn’t get out and walk due to a medical condition. I decided that I was going to work on the chair exercise as much as possible each day, and sure enough, as my medical condition improved, I was able to work in standing aerobics, standing strength training, walking again, and finally I decided to try yoga.
I am constantly laughing in the yoga classes. I was able to do a plank pose the other day and couldn’t stop laughing with joy. A year ago, I could not get up from a sitting position on the floor. This is wonderful. It is all due to the fact that somehow my body got the message to me that this condition was not going to improve without some form of exercise.
I walked one and a half miles today, easily. I’m back to walking and doing my errands, too.
3. I went and tried on clothes in a dressing room today and I was able to critically assess the clothes because I was not obsessed with how horrible my body looks. I actually enjoyed myself. This is a first. If this feeling ever existed before, I couldn’t hear it.
The Merchant;s Wife at Tea
Dimensions: 120 x 120 cm
Gallery: Russian Museum, St. Petersburg, Russia
This woman is comfortable in her own skin. She's enjoying her tea, and has a variety of fruit and a tea bread in front of her. Her skin is beautiful and her clothes tell us she cares about herself. I strive to be this at ease with body.