Friday, March 08, 2013
Joe is coming home with Chloe late tonight. He regrets his decision to leave. I regret that he spent $2000 on tickets to get away only to come home two days later. We have a LOT of work to do to repair our marriage. I want to, I can only hope he does as well.
My diet/exercise has been non-existant this week. I've been unbearably congested. No matter how much I blow my nose, the congestion doesn't diminish at all.
I've been taking sinus and cold meds and nothing helps aside from Afrin, temporarily. And if you overuse Afrin it makes the mucus and congestion worse. I've not really been able to taste much so I'm eating what does taste good. On Wednesday I didn't eat anything after lunch for the rest of the day. Yesterday and today I've eaten but nothing really Paleo other than some fruits and veggies. Honestly, I just want to not be sick, and then I'll worry about my diet.
I skipped both BeFit classes because I can't really breathe. I feel like an asthmatic. Everyday functions leave me gasping for air because the congestion in my nose is so bad. I run out of breathe just chewing my food, I didn't think working out would be a good idea. Plus with everything going on with Joe, I really didn't feel like being around people once work was over. I've just been doing some thinking and spending time with Spencer.
My son is wonderful. He will never know how much he has helped me through this ordeal just by being his amazing, adorable, sweet little boy self. Every moment with him is precious and leaves me amazed that I helped create someone so perfect. No matter what happens between Joe and I, I will always love him for helping bring Spencer into this world, because my world is a million times brighter now that my son is part of it.
Anyway, it's bedtime for the little man and I'm tired as well. Not being able to breathe makes it hard to sleep. If the congestion doesn't lessen over the weekend, I'm going to try to see the doctor... because it's really ridiculous.