Friday, March 08, 2013
You know you wake up some morning and you just dont want to do this again today. Today was that day for me . I wanted to go get a greasy hamburger and fries . I wanted to lounge on the couch like the rest of the world gets to do (in my mind only) . my body aches from the pt and exercise and i just didnt want to it again today. I wanted to feel like i could have that one day and just be .
Friday's are always hard for me . I throw everything i have at this process and it becomes exhausting . The whole shibang get tedious . I work out 7 days a week and two days a week it is 2 workouts . There is noone that makes me . There is no one that says you dont have to .. There is just me and the desire to be something different . But oh my god on days like today I just don't want to . So what do you do when you just hate to do it one more time ? how do you move yourself to do it .. Well let me tell you . You get up and you go do it one more time and say to yourself "you are worth more than not doing " . My talk was a little more stern than that as i really just didnt want to at all today ..
But I went to the gym and I did the workout . Why ? would one missed day have killed me ? well probably not but I am committed to my program and well it has to be done . If there is one thing that i would want everyone to know about me . Is I promise you cant not say anything that I have not said to myself . Sometimes you just have to do it . I live with a fear of going back so I do everything with the image of 365 pounds in my head and how i never want to do that again ... Yes this is my you go girl blog because I went , accomplished it and proved to myself that i am stronger than my wants .