Friday, March 08, 2013
There are a LOT of things that I can complain about. A lot of things bothering me, on my mind. But in the grand scheme of things, I'm just whining. I know that i'm blessed beyond anything that I deserve, so I need to just find a way to channel that negativity and push it away. I know others are suffering in real ways, ways that I can't imagine how I'd put one foot in front of the other. It'd do me good to remember that, and remember how blessed I really am. Who cares if I'm having a bad month at work. I'm working!
I'm gaining weight... consistently. I'm not ignorant... I know why. I just haven't been able to dig in and do the work and say no to the food. As long as I eat with reckless abandon, I'll continue to gain, it's just that simple.
I've lost my mojo. I've lost my spark. I haven't been any good for myself or my dear spark friends.