Friday, March 08, 2013
It feels like it's been a while since I've checked in. It's not that I've forgotten about this journal, or spark people -- it's just I've not really been in a place where I've been able to contemplate life changes right at this time. My home situation has been tense, work was eating up a lot of mental band-width and I've been trying to get back into school but dealing with more red tape and frustration than I wanted to.
If that weren't enough I was slapped with a wage garnishment notice from some credit card I took out over 13 years ago, which I thought I had long ago paid off/canceled but apparently I hadn't, and as I've moved around a lot in the last few years, and been in and out of work I had no idea they had even gotten a judgement against me in 2008, so now the amount owed is double what I would of owed.
It's one of those things which happens to me a lot in my life. Unexpected surprises from the past which always seem to interfere with, or derail my future in some way. You just end up wanting to throw your hands up and give up.
But I don't want to give up, is the thing. I know I will get through this period of difficulty one step at a time, even if the end feels really far away, and I can't see the ending.
That's kind of how I feel about this.. healthier living goal of mine. I'm not giving up, but I've sort of had to take a detour for a little bit. As long as I don't give up, and I keep conscious of where I want to go, I will get there, eventually. Patience. Persistence. Passion.
Anyway.. I just wanted to poke my head in, so my spark people friends know I am still alive, and if not well, working on it. I'm still here. Even if I am not *here*.