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Thursday, March 07, 2013

I didn't gain weight overnight - I gained it over 2 years. 40lbs to be exact. 20lbs a year.

Ouch. That was some serious margarita and cheesecake overload.

When I became overweight, I went into a weird kind of denial. Anorexics see themselves as too fat when they are too thin. I was the reverse; I saw myself as thin even I went from a size 4 to 14.

As I bought larger and larger pants, I rationalized that I just had a 'few' pounds to lose. "We all put on a little weight," I thought.

A friend of mine recently developed an old roll of film (from when we still had film cameras!). I was truly stunned by who I saw. Was it really me?

This one wasn't from that roll, but I came across it today and noted the date: March 7, 2003. Exactly 10 years ago today.

Maybe I'll be brave enough to share the others one day.

It took me about 10 years to figure out all the right pieces to reverse this. I fit into a size 4 or 6 (depending on the designer) these days. The muffin top, side rolls and double chin are gone.

My body's not perfect. My butt is J-lo like; my thighs touch. I can pinch an inch (hurray for Spanx!) You'll never see me post a bikini photo for my success story - it feels too exposed (no pun intended).

As I get older, I see the clock ticking with the growing lines on my face. I discover a few gray hairs emerging now and then. Tomorrow I won't be as young as I am today.

And yet I am still healthier and happier than I was 10 years ago.

Even if it took me 10 years, it all started with day one.

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    Moving out of denial can be a rude awakening! Those pictures don't lie, do they? You have made a remarkable transformation, kudos to you!
    1813 days ago

    I can so totally relate! If you read my Sparkpage intro you can see just HOW long a process this is for me. When my 16 and 17 year old were more like 2 and 3 I:

    weighed about 235
    smoked up to 2 packs a day
    drank 6-10 beers a night
    ate whatever, whenever
    drank coffee all day long just to stay awake and moving
    drank virtually no water
    took Prilosec for constant heartburn
    got winded walking more than a flight of steps
    stayed in pjs or sweats most of the day
    stopped taking care of my face or hair or clothes
    was usually depressed or disconnected

    I'm still a work in progress too. I will never be beautiful or have an ideal body. My job, my family, my husband, my own self all throw out constant challenges.

    Never been happier!
    1814 days ago

    Comment edited on: 3/8/2013 11:09:14 AM
    Good job! Your story is awesome!
    1814 days ago
    emoticon .....you look happy!
    1815 days ago
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