Thursday, March 07, 2013
Yesterday was one of the worst days I have had emotionally in a long time. It was as if the residents of my mind took a vote and decided to eliminate all the positives, and promote all the negatives. Well those negative emotions started a wild party inside my head and all I could hear was you are broke, you are fat, you are an impatient mother and a bitchy wife, you are stuck and on and on...
So last night when my head just about split open from all this unsavoury cyclical strong hold, I shouted to the remaining residents that I had had enough and kindly asked them to take their leave. As if it would be that easy.
See the migration of the positives and consequent immigration of the negatives had not started just yesterday. No way Jose, there was a great shift happening while I continued my day to day humdrum life. Slowly I had traded in meditation and spiritual rejuvenation for an extra hour of sleep. And my time that I usually reserved for positive reinforcement through out the day had stealthily been replaced by work and a few quick stops to sip some coffee. And so it was that yesterday was the culmination of many weeks of neglect and depletion.
Recognizing this lack, I decided to do something to change it, because I believe in the power of change-well clearly , I had been changing without even giving myself permission to do so-ha!
So I woke up this morning and went directly to my sanctuary and in that secret place, once again found peace and the transmutation of most things repugnant. And the best part is it only took 30 minutes! Now tell me is there 30 minutes in your day to replace detrimental, antagonistic patterns with more serene and life extending ones? You see the transformation of one's mind happens, but we can be deliberate about it, making sure we are creating new thought patterns and thus attracting new hope, life and serenity.
A positive side note to all this is I finally got the call today for a job I had been hoping for. Now was that a coincide? I think not, I think I am the creator of my day, year, life and so if I think I am capable, great enough, qualified enough, worthy, then it is so and vice versa.
Here's a mantra I made up to remind me of the law of attraction at work in my life, I hope you can use it to help you through.
I am strong and healthy
I am powerful and smart
I am prosperous and productive
I am magnetizing all that is beautiful to me
I am loved, divine, becoming...